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[potatobug]

Hi everyone-

I used to have a user name password here but it seems to have gone away...its been a long time since I've posted,and well might as well start over.I am a SAHM to my 2 year old daughter, and am expecting my second child and am almost 8 months pregnant.I have had many complications with this pregnancy and am having a lot of anxiety problems,especially since my pdoc has taken me off celexa,thus heightening my anxiety disorder.I also have bipolar/schizzoaffective disorder(label depending on the doctor or hospital who treats me, so often the diagnosis changes to fit the symptoms as I am sure many of you can relate!)

I practice Buddhist meditation and am of that mind (as far as philosophy or religion is concerned)and yoga which helps my anxiety and other issues immensely.I also practice other wholistic approaches to dealing with my disorder such as smudging, aromatherapy,and vitamin therapy along with my current medication.Being as I am pregnant, there are not many things I can take or undertake to ease any suffering, which of late has been significant.So I burn sage and use lavendar oil to bring myself to a restful state, and it really has helped.


I hope to be a part of this community, I have much to contribute, an empathetic/sympathetic ear, as well as a need to vent and release my own angst.Hope to get to know some folks-

regards,

Patty

[Boopers]

Hi Patty,

Welcome, Welcome, Welcome!!

So sorry you are having problems with this pregnancy!! Sounds like you are doing all the right things to help yourself, as some doctors don't take the time to really know us and therefore, we don't get the right treatments!!

I wish you the best and look forward to reading more of your posts!!

Good Luck!!
Linda

[potatobug]

Thanks so much for the welcome!
Today has been a particularly difficult day, I have had about 5 major panic attacks between 6 am and 8 pm,am trying my best to hang on,my doctor wants to call in a script for me of either valium or klonopin depending on which my OB/GYN says is ok to take,I need something to help with the celexa withdrawal, and lowered anxiety threshold.Just updating,thanks again for the response to my post-

Patty

[lacyndarella]

Hello Patty. I am new here too. I can't offer much in the way of real advice because I just don't know anything yet! But I am glad to have found a forum to help me and my family. I understand that your religious beliefs are different from my own, but I offer you my prayers anyway (I offer them in the spirit of love)...Feel better. Being eight months pregnant is miserable enough physically without added challenges. At that point I was just ready to not be pregnant anymore. Although, strangely enough, when I was induced, I was a little sad that I wouldn't be pregnant anymore, because feeling Jimmie move inside me was the most intimate relationship I had ever shared. Soon you will have your child and that is really wonderful.

[potatobug]

Thank you Lacy-

thanks for your prayers-I really appreciate any spiritual path and to offer in such a way is truly a gift.I am really having a terrible time,I am off most meds except for low dose of two, no mood stabilizer no antidepressant just antipsychotics and I feel like Im on a roller coaster and adrift in a sea of overwhelming anxiety and mental pain.I only have about six weeks left til I can schedule my c section(my daughter was an emergency C section, so my baby must be born this way as well-)I wanted so much to have a vbac but it isnt possible so there is that as well.My husband is injured again 8 months after having back surgery and is looking at a second surgery within a year,my mom had a stroke I just cant understand why things have to be this hard.I have some bad karma and feel I must truly fill my heart with loving kindness to get through this.Thanks for your support and prayers-

Patty

[Boopers]

Hi Patty,
How are you doing? How is the pregnancy going? I hope you are healthy and baby too.
Did the doc end up giving you anything? I hope you are doing OK
Take care,
Linda

[potatobug]

Hi Linda-

Im doing alright-thank you for asking.The baby is good he weighs about five pounds-I had a growth scan and that was their aproximation, he should be about 8 pounds at delivery if I go to 38 weeks.Hopefully Ill be able to schedule the c section around 36 37 weeks.This has been a rough pregnancy.My doc upped my abilify 20 mgs, and that helps a little but I really would be better I think on a mood stabilizer that addresses my rapid cycling.I hate thinking in terms of this that of late I am being my illness not living as a free person.My husband keeps saying Im totally halfempty and he dosent seem to realize that keeping saying that is not making me feel any better.

I am lower than high lately and try to meditate regularly at least.That makes a difference.Anyway, I am getting by...

Patty

[Boopers]

It sounds like the baby is doing really good. That is wonderful
I just wish you were better. It could be alot of stress on you right now as the reason you are feeling so down.
I am hoping you have a beautiful, healthy, and happy baby and that your spirits lift up high to the sky.
Let your husband know that you need all of his support right now and we he says things like that to you, it really gets you down. You really don't need that pressure right now.
Take care of you and the rest will follow.
Be good to yourself,
Linda

[potatobug]

Linda-thank you

I appreciate your welcome and your kindness.I am doing 100% better than when I origionally posted,something has just clicked somewhere and I am better equipped to handle the not so great things that come my way, and also am developing an appreciation for the good things in my life, like my wonderfully supportive husband beautiful daughter and the fact that soon I will have an infant son.We also recently got a new minivan which is pretty cool,things are coming together and life dosent seem so up and down anymore, there is more of a level now.I have two weeks to my c section and am doing fine,hopeful for what comes next-

patty