Automatic prioritizing...

[milivica]

I hate to even start a thread about this, cause maybe it's not what I'm supposed to post on mgh...but maybe it is cause I might do this cause I'm aspie...here goes:

Tonight, I dropped of my daughter at 4H, then Vince and I drive to the nearby library which he does great at usually, so it's darn pleasant to ENJOY time with him. I leave the library to pick up Carmen from her 4H group, the road is clear. Two minutes later as we leave 4H there is a dead looking cat in almost the middle of the road. Vince FREAKS, he is already crying cause Carmen 'won' the battle over who opens the car handle so he is already frustrated, defeated, and wants a reward for not 'kicking her butt'. He sees the cat same time as I do, and completely loses it. Understandable.

I tell him I need to go back, no friggin way could I handle not knowing if it was still alive and just knocked out, and me checking could have made a difference by me getting it help - plus, if it's dead, I want to get it off the road. It's not squished at all, but would be by the next day, I wouldn't want the owners to see it like that. What if it just so happened to get out, and they love it dearly?

So, I go back, park my car, Vince has calmed himself. I don't let either kid out cause I'm unsure if the cat is actually dead. I fear one or both of them will get scratched or bit if the cat comes to and rightfully freaks out. I fear the same for myself, it has no collar or tags so could be a 'wild' cat which we have out here. It wasn't breathing, but cause no fluids were coming out of it like most hit animals, I was kind of jumpy. I moved it off the road, and onto the grass. It's eyes were slightly open, it was still warm. I felt so stinkin bad for it.

I called the non-emergency cops from home, told him about it. He checked and called right back, it was in fact dead which I figured (but what if I was wrong). I thought if some family was missing their cat, they would call the cops or animal control, and at least this way, they'll know what happened, and know someone at least cared enough to get it out of the road.

It was so sad. I'm sure the animal didn't suffer though, I'm guessing it jumped and was hit by the grill or something directly on it's whole body, it didn't have a mark on it.

Am I the only one that puts my plans on hold, and makes every animal emergency a priority? Gawd I'd get in so much trouble at work for this, I finally lied about it (then told the truth and got in more trouble). I'm the only one running all over the road after birds with a hurt wing, etc etc... I don't do it on purpose, it's automatic, not so much a moral thing or whatnot, pretty much like if you saw a human baby or child in need of help you would just automatically do it.

Are any of you weather nt or asd aware of automatic prioritizing your brain does, that seems unique to you. Just wondering. Kind of a getting to know ya question I suppose.

Mili

[tgrimes]

Mili -
Is that like 'internal scripting'? I read something about this over the summer.
I don't know if this is relevant or not, but I used to do this thing where if i'm in a group of five or more people I would say either something just for shock value or an inappropriate joke, just to read expressions, and then later wonder why in the world I do that compulsively.
Over the summer I was reading some psychology-type books, and something I read about sort of clicked that there was a purpose behind this, I figured out I was doing it to determine which people were judgemental.
I haven't been around non-family 'groups' since then, so I don't know if I would still do this, but knowing the reason why I've done it after all these years, I think not. Unless the information would be useful.

[milivica]

Well Automatic Prioritizing is just a phrase I made up...if there is such terminology out there I don't know what it is.

I might know what you're talking about though...when I get around people I feel comfortable around, like 2 or more (which is so rare) I just say the most outlandish things. I remember the last thing...it was at Carmen's birthday party, I was doing back dives into the pool. My friend who is a doctor, was getting nervous so I started calling her and doing them higher and farther just to be a little sh!t or whatever, then, I come up giggling to her and this lady she was sitting with that I also like and say it's no big deal after all the angel dust I did in the 1970's and flip back into the pool. Even as I said it, I was like unable to understand why I'd say something so revealing or out of context...like my meaning was angel dust was way more dangerous than these back dives....but gawd the way I said it with this dopey @ss smile on my face, yeesh. Just flat out wierd.

But I have said things that felt 'risky' in front of small groups of people talking, cause, well everything I say seems like a risk. I don't really know how to join in, and think everything being said is so uninteresting I don't understand what in the world draws them together.

Ya know what, I think my sleeping pill is kicking in...I hope all of that was coherent.

[tgrimes]

Originally Posted by milivica

...then, I come up giggling to her and this lady she was sitting with that I also like and say it's no big deal after all the angel dust I did in the 1970's and flip back into the pool.

You did check for the 'eyebrow thing' before you dove in, right?

Well I like 'automatic prioritizing' better than Dr Phil's phraseology.

[milivica]

Originally Posted by tgrimes

You did check for the 'eyebrow thing' before you dove in, right?

Did I check for the '------- -----' before I dove in???

Sorry, I can't read body language.







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