all4jesus
02-16-2007, 10:42 PM
Yes, you will see my member name but I didn't know where else to turn. I am a survivor I've been struggling with anxiety depression all my life and I am on the medication roller coaster.....got too far and started abusing them. It happens every few years and I was a totally different person. Sleeping pills, anti-anxiety pills, anything to escape. I feel rage inside and get aweful ideas that I know are not of God and not what he wants for me. The anxiety has escalated so much that I couldn't even sleep with them for a month now!! I'm literally on my last nerve right now. My back feels like it's on fire I have muscles spasms twitches in my stomach, face, back, limbs intermittanly non-stop. When I go out I get paranoid. I have brain damage from it now! I can't stop crying. I probably sound like a real pity party but I've had thoughts that of suicide all month. I am barely hanging on...:(