houghchrst
02-05-2007, 12:04 PM
Hey it is the start of a new day, a new week. I hope everyone had a good weekend.
Where I am at the sun is shining but the schools are closed down in a couple of different counties. Dangerous freezing temperatures. :eek: I don't remember when the last time that happened. Usually it is because of freezing rain or a lot of snow. I haven't been out yet but we do plan to. My fiance got some money back from a student loan so we are going shopping for stuff for the house.
I remember when there was a time when we would be waiting anxiously for that money to come in. So anxious I would be sick to my stomach because I knew that later we would be calling the drug dealer and hitting the liquor store. Even now if I think about smoking crack or even see someone in a movie doing it I get sick to my stomach. Not as bad as it used to be but it reminds me that I am still an addict. Now I can quickly push the thoughts aside and move on to a different thought. Seven years worth of training to reach this point and every day I am still a work in progress. ;) Now it is nice to know that when we get money that I won't have the guilt that comes with spending it on killing myself.
OK enough down memory lane. I hope for a clean and sober and happy day for all.
Where I am at the sun is shining but the schools are closed down in a couple of different counties. Dangerous freezing temperatures. :eek: I don't remember when the last time that happened. Usually it is because of freezing rain or a lot of snow. I haven't been out yet but we do plan to. My fiance got some money back from a student loan so we are going shopping for stuff for the house.
I remember when there was a time when we would be waiting anxiously for that money to come in. So anxious I would be sick to my stomach because I knew that later we would be calling the drug dealer and hitting the liquor store. Even now if I think about smoking crack or even see someone in a movie doing it I get sick to my stomach. Not as bad as it used to be but it reminds me that I am still an addict. Now I can quickly push the thoughts aside and move on to a different thought. Seven years worth of training to reach this point and every day I am still a work in progress. ;) Now it is nice to know that when we get money that I won't have the guilt that comes with spending it on killing myself.
OK enough down memory lane. I hope for a clean and sober and happy day for all.