teddiebears
09-04-2009, 03:14 AM
Hello everyone.
I would like to share something that I did last night because I'm feeling very good about it. I went to a bar to help my neighbor celebrate her birthday and I drank nothing but water the whole time I was there. :) Nearly everyone around me was drinking some kind of alcohol and it didn't bother me one bit!!! Absolutely no desire to have a drink whatsoever. And I definitely wasn't feeling ANY urges to smoke either! YUCK! lol Although the cigarette smoke wasn't TOO bad, after awhile it started to negatively affect my breathing, so I decided it was time to come home! :)
Forgive me for tooting my own horn a little bit here, but I was very pleased to discover how completely unaffected I was by being around people drinking alcohol like that. :D
As far as the car accident, I'm feeling much better and I would say I've fully recovered. I am feeling just a little stiffness in my back and one hip, but I felt that prior to the accident so I'm not terribly concerned about that. ;) ;)
Here's a reading for today from Affirmations for the Inner Child by Rokelle Lerner -
Today I will follow the rules of natural order.
The world is an orderly place. Day follows night, season follows season. Every living thing exists within the rules of a natural order.
Nature provides signals that help all living things follow the rules of survival. In spring, leaves "read" a light signal that tells the plant to flower. Sometimes nature gives more than one signal so that a plant does not sprout on a warm autumn day before the winter frost.
As a child, I did not learn to read the signals of my physical needs. I learned not to feel hunger or tiredness, so I did not eat or rest at the proper times.
In recovery, I'm learning to read the signals of my body. Now I respond early rather than waiting for a growling stomach or extreme fatigue. Today I will structure my day around the needs of my body. I will follow the rules of the natural order.
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In recent months (years?) I've found myself 'slipping' in and out of some old patterns in this area. Trying to follow the "natural order" seems to have been pushed aside by me 'turning a blind eye' to any personal "signals". I am not sleeping at the right times. I am not eating at the proper times (nor in a very healthy way). As a matter of fact, I often feel very incapable of taking care of myself in all the ways that I truly should.
I know that when I'm feeling depressed I tend to lose sight of the "natural order" simply because my thoughts and feelings in general are very disconnected and jumbled. I have a hard time doing anything at all, and certainly not following some sort of logical progression. :rolleyes:
Sort of like right now. I'm having a really hard time collecting my thoughts and getting them down on the page in a way that seems logical or clear to me, so I can only imagine how disjointed and unclear it will be to anyione who reads this. :(
What does this mean to you??
Have a peaceful and addiction free day! :)
I would like to share something that I did last night because I'm feeling very good about it. I went to a bar to help my neighbor celebrate her birthday and I drank nothing but water the whole time I was there. :) Nearly everyone around me was drinking some kind of alcohol and it didn't bother me one bit!!! Absolutely no desire to have a drink whatsoever. And I definitely wasn't feeling ANY urges to smoke either! YUCK! lol Although the cigarette smoke wasn't TOO bad, after awhile it started to negatively affect my breathing, so I decided it was time to come home! :)
Forgive me for tooting my own horn a little bit here, but I was very pleased to discover how completely unaffected I was by being around people drinking alcohol like that. :D
As far as the car accident, I'm feeling much better and I would say I've fully recovered. I am feeling just a little stiffness in my back and one hip, but I felt that prior to the accident so I'm not terribly concerned about that. ;) ;)
Here's a reading for today from Affirmations for the Inner Child by Rokelle Lerner -
Today I will follow the rules of natural order.
The world is an orderly place. Day follows night, season follows season. Every living thing exists within the rules of a natural order.
Nature provides signals that help all living things follow the rules of survival. In spring, leaves "read" a light signal that tells the plant to flower. Sometimes nature gives more than one signal so that a plant does not sprout on a warm autumn day before the winter frost.
As a child, I did not learn to read the signals of my physical needs. I learned not to feel hunger or tiredness, so I did not eat or rest at the proper times.
In recovery, I'm learning to read the signals of my body. Now I respond early rather than waiting for a growling stomach or extreme fatigue. Today I will structure my day around the needs of my body. I will follow the rules of the natural order.
**********
In recent months (years?) I've found myself 'slipping' in and out of some old patterns in this area. Trying to follow the "natural order" seems to have been pushed aside by me 'turning a blind eye' to any personal "signals". I am not sleeping at the right times. I am not eating at the proper times (nor in a very healthy way). As a matter of fact, I often feel very incapable of taking care of myself in all the ways that I truly should.
I know that when I'm feeling depressed I tend to lose sight of the "natural order" simply because my thoughts and feelings in general are very disconnected and jumbled. I have a hard time doing anything at all, and certainly not following some sort of logical progression. :rolleyes:
Sort of like right now. I'm having a really hard time collecting my thoughts and getting them down on the page in a way that seems logical or clear to me, so I can only imagine how disjointed and unclear it will be to anyione who reads this. :(
What does this mean to you??
Have a peaceful and addiction free day! :)