teddiebears
08-31-2009, 04:03 AM
Hello everyone. It's good to be back!! :) lol
I'm posting a reading for today from the book Forgiving & Moving On (by Tian Dayton) that I think is quite appropriate in light of recent posts --
Calming Down
I can let myself calm down when I am upset. When I am stirred up inside and my emotions are very agitated, life looks different to me than when I am not. When I was growing up, I repressed my feelings because I had nowhere to go with them. Because that was true yesterday, it does not mean that today I have to over-react to each and every feeling I have so as not to fall into the same trap. When I am wrought up inside, it is okay to let myself just calm down and relax and know that when I have done this, things will look different. Rash action happens when I can't stay with and feel my feelings. The actual experience of feeling makes me so uncomfortable that I act out.
I can let myself calm down.
Often the test of courage is not to die but to live. -- Conte Vittorio Alfieri
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Don't you agree that this reading fits well with some of our recent posts and comments?? Sure seemed like it to me. ;)
I think what I wrote on one of the other roll calls is similar to what this reading is saying. And it definitely fits the idea of 'getting out of your own way' that is part of Step Seven.
I have to say that I feel the final quote in that reading is extremely powerful and very true -- "Often the test of courage is not to die but to live." -- Conte Vittorio Alfieri. I've said something very similar to that for many years. Dying is the easy part, it's living that takes courage. :rolleyes:
I guess one main issue for me that I take from this reading is that I do NOT have to repeat the same patterns concerning my feelings that I used when I was growing up, not to mention what I 'continued' to use into adulthood. :confused: Let's face it - it was a lot easier for me to "hide" (repress) my feelings than it has ever been for me to be aware and in touch with them. :rolleyes: More food for thought here!! ;)
What do you all think??
Okay - just to update a bit -- one morning shortly after I last posted my request for us all to agree to 'commit' to the forum, I was involved in a minor traffic accident (riding with a friend). We both went to the ER just to be 'safe'. I hit my head - not too hard, but hard enough to cause a slight concussion, I guess. And for some reason, I had an irregular heartbeat (and elevated blood pressure) after the incident, :eek: and with my history of hypertension and my heart attack 4 years ago, the doctor felt I should stay at the hospital awhile for "observation". I ended up spending about 30 hours there. :rolleyes: The heartbeat irregularity and elevated blood pressure became more 'normal' in a matter of hours. As more time passed, my headache was getting better too so they sent me home the next day. :) However, I was very sore all-over my body (with a few good-sized bruises here and there), so I didn't spend much time on the computer because it hurt to sit very long. Basically, I checked email and my ebay listings and that was it - lol. But I'm feeling okay now. I just have a couple of those beautiful purply-green remnants of bruises left, but they don't really hurt anymore. lol
Then - as if the universe had something against me - lol, my computer hard drive died. :( So I had to order one (get the best prices that way) and wait about 4 - 5 days for that to get here.... and then wait awhile for my son to be able to stop over to install it for me. :rolleyes: So - that's what kept me away from posting. Sorry - but I'm sure glad I'm back now. :D :D
I'm posting a reading for today from the book Forgiving & Moving On (by Tian Dayton) that I think is quite appropriate in light of recent posts --
Calming Down
I can let myself calm down when I am upset. When I am stirred up inside and my emotions are very agitated, life looks different to me than when I am not. When I was growing up, I repressed my feelings because I had nowhere to go with them. Because that was true yesterday, it does not mean that today I have to over-react to each and every feeling I have so as not to fall into the same trap. When I am wrought up inside, it is okay to let myself just calm down and relax and know that when I have done this, things will look different. Rash action happens when I can't stay with and feel my feelings. The actual experience of feeling makes me so uncomfortable that I act out.
I can let myself calm down.
Often the test of courage is not to die but to live. -- Conte Vittorio Alfieri
*************
Don't you agree that this reading fits well with some of our recent posts and comments?? Sure seemed like it to me. ;)
I think what I wrote on one of the other roll calls is similar to what this reading is saying. And it definitely fits the idea of 'getting out of your own way' that is part of Step Seven.
I have to say that I feel the final quote in that reading is extremely powerful and very true -- "Often the test of courage is not to die but to live." -- Conte Vittorio Alfieri. I've said something very similar to that for many years. Dying is the easy part, it's living that takes courage. :rolleyes:
I guess one main issue for me that I take from this reading is that I do NOT have to repeat the same patterns concerning my feelings that I used when I was growing up, not to mention what I 'continued' to use into adulthood. :confused: Let's face it - it was a lot easier for me to "hide" (repress) my feelings than it has ever been for me to be aware and in touch with them. :rolleyes: More food for thought here!! ;)
What do you all think??
Okay - just to update a bit -- one morning shortly after I last posted my request for us all to agree to 'commit' to the forum, I was involved in a minor traffic accident (riding with a friend). We both went to the ER just to be 'safe'. I hit my head - not too hard, but hard enough to cause a slight concussion, I guess. And for some reason, I had an irregular heartbeat (and elevated blood pressure) after the incident, :eek: and with my history of hypertension and my heart attack 4 years ago, the doctor felt I should stay at the hospital awhile for "observation". I ended up spending about 30 hours there. :rolleyes: The heartbeat irregularity and elevated blood pressure became more 'normal' in a matter of hours. As more time passed, my headache was getting better too so they sent me home the next day. :) However, I was very sore all-over my body (with a few good-sized bruises here and there), so I didn't spend much time on the computer because it hurt to sit very long. Basically, I checked email and my ebay listings and that was it - lol. But I'm feeling okay now. I just have a couple of those beautiful purply-green remnants of bruises left, but they don't really hurt anymore. lol
Then - as if the universe had something against me - lol, my computer hard drive died. :( So I had to order one (get the best prices that way) and wait about 4 - 5 days for that to get here.... and then wait awhile for my son to be able to stop over to install it for me. :rolleyes: So - that's what kept me away from posting. Sorry - but I'm sure glad I'm back now. :D :D