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Phil
07-31-2009, 06:35 PM
Hi Everyone, WELCOME!!

We're back!! I had horrid thoughts of a long down time. Thanks to Mike and David!! I do hope that John know's about this. These forums are a life line for many, many people, even people like me who rarely post. It's like my connection to the outside world. Braintalk is still my favorite. I think we've been through 4 upgrades.....call me old fashioned.



I decided to clean out the cob webs (my own) and post a roll call. I'm here all the time so I don't know why I don't post. I think depression plays a roll. I'm taking Zoloft and Lamictal. My pdoc decided to get pregnant........and quit. I see a nurse now. She has a bunch of letters behind her name......RN, BSN and some others that allow her to prescribe. I really liked my pdoc and I'm hoping she'll come back. Boy, was that woman thorough!!

HELLo to Chris, Teddies, Pat, Lee and Alice. Is that everyone?

Most of the old timers left and started another forum though I can't rmember why. I wish we had our old forum back. Forgive and forget.

Thank you Teddiebears for trying to keep the forum alive. We sure lost a lot of people and again, I can't remember why. Do any of you remember Pete, Rachael? Pete passed away.

I got a PM from Sly though I don't know when I'll hear back from her. Stan (jimc) had told me that his computer broke. I haven't spoken to him in a long time. I hope he is okay as well as everyone who used to post here. Jill too. I miss her. I miss everyone.

I'm sure you all remember Scro. He registered time and time again, was banned numerous times and trolled, BIG TIME!! I can't be sure but I think he still posts on chronic pain. He uses multiple user name

I tapered myself off of opioids. I had chronic pain for oh, 5-6 years. I just decided that I was sick of it. When I finished my taper I found that my pain level had dramatically decreased. Now today, my back hurts.......go figure!! Motrin. Aspirin or Tylenol wouldn't touch the pain today.....But I'm tired of pain clinics.

For some strange reason, I would like to go to a meeting. I don't know why. I think I would like to socialize, here the good word. I suppose like all of us, I see my many failures and wish I could go back and correct them.

My mother was ill. She had reactivation of chicken pox. I can't think of the name of it. It's probably 95% gone. It's scary when your 73 y/o mother gets sick. Her mother had it too. A Doctor came to the house and did spinal manipulation. According to the literature, most cases go away on there own.

I was all set to go out and by a converter.....but I waited. My TV still works and without a box. The TV is old enough that it is not one of the new one's. I guess since I have cable, it's okay.

Every time I come to this forum....I think of all of you. I imagine us interacting. I wish I could get myself to get out. I haven't been back to the park. I go to the bread store and then to the duck pond. They will eat right out of my hands, even stealing a whole piece of bread.

My sister (who is disabled) now volunteers at the animal shelter. She's very excited about it. I hope she keeps going. She loves animals. I do to. I think my cat must be 12 years old. I got her at pass pets when she was 6 months old. I have her approximate birth date some where around here. She was very timid and afraid. Apparently, she had been adopted twice and returned. I found her cowering in the litter box. The vet said she had a chiped tooth. I wonder if she was abused. How else does a cat get a chipped tooth?

It took a very long time for her not to be timid and hide under furniture. She seem's to be healthy. I hope I have her for a very long time.

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So, please everyone, chime in and let us know how you are and what's going. Chris, how are things at home?

Teddie, how are you? I think about you every time I light a cigarette.....and I wonder when my time will come. I want to quit but I don't have the gumption. I'm still blowing about 100% but all the while, it's doing it's damage. I guess I'm just stupid.

Hello Lee, I hope your doing well. I hope that Doctor is doing something more than he had been doing. You do though have a positive attitude and that helps, a little anyway. Have you played the organ? I'm sure it brings you joy.

Hello Alice, how are you? You are clean and sober and happy. What more could a person ask for? Do you mind if I ask....Are you a sponsor? You would be a good one!!((Alice))

Pat, how are you? It was so good to see you post. The pain monster. I think it's got us all. I stopped therapy but today, I'm sorry that I did. I've had PT twice and it did help but, I need more. One of my problems is rounded shoulders. I also tend to arch my back. I try not to but it seems to come naturally. I know there's not much activity here but I'd like to see you post. I tapered off of opioids but still have some left. The problem is that there to strong so I can't use them. I also have a very hard time sleeping which IMHO, which contributes to pain


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I don't know how many of you have a hard time getting out but I sure do. I have to force myself to go to the pdoc and therapist. I even run low on food as I put it off. I even went as far as to tell my pdoc I thought I needed to be institualized.


I mentioned my mother earlier. I said she was 73. I am terrified that she will die (she is old) b/f and mother had been going to Florida right after Christmas. Well, last year one of their friends died in Florida. His wife was there and it was a BIG mess. His body had to be flown back to illinois (after autopsy) which was delayed. b/f and Mother helped pack everything up. I think it was freeway as opposed to aircraft,everything was a BIG mess.

Then, b/f brother fell off the roof and killed himself. He didn't have an autopsy as the family didn't want to put him through it. Now, Mother and b/f will not go back to Florida again. I know exactly what their thinking. Their thinking that one of them will be next and they don't want to be stranded in Florida. For the first time in a long time, they will experience an Illinois winter.


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Take care everyone. I hope to become more active on the forum....We shall see though.

May God guide and protect you.

Phil

Leeaelle
08-01-2009, 09:04 PM
Hi Phil ~ I'm a day late and a dollar short! LOL. It's SO good to see you post and to hear from you! Gosh, we haven't talked in ages.

I'm about the same. I can't remember the last time we spoke, so I don't remember what I was taking when we spoke. But the pain is getting worse, and the doc is a little reluctant to Rx much more. I can't blame him really cause ALL the doctors in that town have been duped by drug addicts. They're all gun shy now, and my doc is the ONLY one in that town who will RX for chronic pain patients.

I sure miss everyone too. I've thought of the Old=timers so many times and wonder where they are. I don't have a clue. I wish they'd come back, or at least check in. This place used to be so active and vibrant ~ and used to help SO many people. It's a shame that it's deteriorated into this.

I'm glad to hear that you were able to get off of your pain meds! That takes a lot of guts. And I'm glad the pain wasn't as bad as you thought it would be. I've weaned off before too just to see what would happen, and I couldn't walk!! The pain was so debilitating - I thought it might be rebound pain, so I waited it out for awhile, but it didn't get any better. My doc knew what I was doing, and he himself said he didn't think I'd be able to stand it. He was right ~ I was back asking for another Rx.

You should go to a meeting, Phil They do a world of good ~ if nothing else, to let you know that you're not alone! It helps to hear of others struggles and feelings and how they've dealt with them. You don't have to talk ~ just listen!

Hope others chime in. It would be great to hear from some who haven't posted in awhile. God bless All and again, Phil - it was great to hear from you! Love to all,, Lee

houghchrst
08-02-2009, 04:00 PM
Phil!!! I am so glad to see you post and to hear how you are doing. I have missed you!

Things here at home are a mess, my 16, well 17 in two days stopped taking his psych meds and reached a point where he was being kicked out of the house regularly, his grandmother's, then taken by the police to the ER. Seen by a crisis psych group which released him a week later. All has been a big mess.

I am exhausted mentally and emotionally and can barely get up the energy to clean my house let alone go out and do anything.

My PM has me on Pamelor and of course when I saw him last we discussed that since the raise my everyday pain had been reduced by about 50%. That's all well and good if I am not doing anything and depending on what time of the month it is. Otherwise the only thing it is helping is my trapezius. Which right now hurts cause I am sitting hunched over the computer desk lol. Yes I know, posture, posture.

On a daily basis I hurt all day just the level of pain is what fluctuates. I don't take my pain meds too often cause I am afraid of addiction and that I will become too use to them. We have only had to raise once.

I am proud of you for being able to quit the meds but you know being in pain all the time is not good for you either.

I haven't been to a meeting in years. Not since I left outpatient rehab 10yrs ago. I guess because if I go it just brings my addiction more to the forefront and right now I am perfectly happy not being reminded about drugs and drinking.

Hey Lee!! Yes I too wish there were more here. I am sure we get many that lurk but I am afraid that they see how few people there are and leave. It is sad.


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Phil
08-03-2009, 12:36 AM
Hello Lee,

It's great to see you post. We need members, old and new. I'm sure they still read here. As you know, one member had his posts deleted. I guess in his profession, I can't blame him. That sure is a bummer about the Docs in yout town. I know some pain can't be measured by any kind of test but I'd bet that a lot of it can be documented and opioid therapy justified. I personally never had a problem with the long acting meds. Just certain short acting meds.

My pain may well be headed chronic again. It can't all be muscle.


I would love to go a meeting and I know the location information is only a phone call away. They taught us in rehab to steer clear of NA and to attend AA and state that we were both an alcoholic and addict. I have a real problem with crowds of people and speaking in public.....sad but true.

Take care Lee......and try not to be a stranger:):)

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Hello Chris,

I know your going through a lot right now and my heart really goes out to you. I truly wish there was some way that I could help. I think Zoloft is probably the best a/d...just my experience. I would stay away from Cymbalta...again, just my experience. My pdoc said that Prozac is the most activating and advised me to stay away from it though it does come in a liquid form for easy titration. May I ask(??)) is he on an anti-psychotic? I don't what his med regimin is...but Seroquel is more sedating than Zyprexa...from my experience though it did cause swollowing problems.

I guess I should make a disclamer and state that I'm not recommending any specific drug or treatment.




My biggest problems are social interaction and isolation. My pdoc pushed a therapist on me and while I'm grateful, it's just lip service. I know that you get what you give. In the not to distant future I hope to be either in public housing or a group home. I don't fancy "house mates" but that might be a consession I have to make.

I know Chris that you worry about tolerance...but to me, life is more important. I hope your having better luck with your long acting than I did.

Stay strong and keep your chin up:D

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Take care everyone...Phil

Hello also to Teddie Bears, Pat and Alice.

Chris, I hope this makes you smile!!

The Rock Singer (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5icrB9zrjYM)

batsinwonderland
08-07-2009, 11:34 PM
Hi! Yes, Phil, I am a sponsor. It makes me sad to hear that treatment is saying to stay away from NA. I am a NA member and love it! Whatever works, I say. Good job weaning yourself off most of the pain meds. I hope you find relief. Blessings, Alice:)