New addict and need help so badly.........

[Texasgal]

Thank you, I can not post here anymore. My ex uses this site. I did not know this.

[Buttons2]

First let me welcome you to BT. Your cry for help shouldn't go ignored. And you are being blackmailed by your ex that got you hooked on this stuff in the first place. Now what to do? Do you have family or friends you can count on to help? Have you confided in anyone what is going on?

I'm not familiar with the pills you take,am assuming they are highly addictive & can cause personality changes? What about your doctor? Since you do have insurance I urge you to seek help thru the med. system.

The quicker you confess what's been going on the sooner you can begin a recovery. I think you recognize there's alot at risk here.

One thing you might do is join an NA group in your area. You'll find support plus learn of resources available to you.

Needless to say the ex needs to find his own house to live in! If he refuses to move then perhaps you should? Those kids need you,but they need you "clean".

Good luck!

[houghchrst]

Hi Texas, and welcome. I hate to say this but you are going to have to give the house up. You are also going to have to fess up. Tell your family, you are going to need them. You need help obviously and since you are more than likely going to have to fight your exhusband about your children and their safety, you can bet he will be a bas*ard and bring up your drug abuse and unfit mother if he can do what he has already done, then you need capable, reliable family to help with the children, help support you in your recovery and be witnesses to how you are doing.

Fortunately for me I got out before things got bad with my child because I saw a lot of mother's losing their children when I did outpatient rehab. Some never got them back. A lot of grandparents and aunts raising children that aren't theirs these days.

Your ex is playing you for a fool and has you on a short leash. Make some calls and find a rehab be it inpatient or outpatient and sign up then pack up what clothes you need to survive and move to a friend or family member's house that same day. Try to make it when he is gone if you think you have to. Ignore any threats. Move into a woman's shelter if you have to. You do what you need to do to save your children and your self. He is getting a cheap thrill by keeping you under his thumb, he wants to threaten you, all you need to do is make a call to the doctor and the police and tell them he is selling his pills and he will find himself in jail for dealing. Believe me I know.

I hope you stick around and let us know how you are doing. You need moral support you got it. I have a bit of experience when it comes to addiction so I am here for you when you need it.

[joy]

rotten luck. unless he has the same computer, you can PM people. he does not get to read what they tell you.

i hope you make it.

[houghchrst]

Ah Tex I am so sorry, you can email me through a PM if you want all you have to do is click on my name and some choices will come up. Select send email. I would really hate to think that someone we know here would be that sick and cruel.

Good luck.