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Hi Patty

How are you doing? Do you have time to update me? How have you been feeling? It does not have to be about anger problems, just things in general. I remember how hard things could get when I had little ones. Never enough time to do everything that needed to be done. Gosh, it's still that way. Now that I'm older I'm also much slower and my want to is much less, lol. :D

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Hi Joy-

sorry it took a little bit to get back.....Things have been eventful, I went into labor on tuesday the 5th;they stopped the contractions and labor after about 8 hours for I am only 33 weeks this week(I was 32 weeks at the beginning of last week now as of thursday am 33 weeks).I have scheduled a c section(Kira was an emergency C so they want this one delivered in the same fashion,unless I go into labor before January 17th and after this thursday.)Sooooo......I am feeling a lot better mentally and emotionally.The celexa finally being out of my system, the withdrawal seems to have abated.I do have a little bit of anxiety from time to time, but am able to watch it, observe the feeling and let it pass.I am not getting caught up in it as I have let myself in the past.i am with a really good therapist who specializes in bipolar patients(me being as such)and works with a cognitive behavioral approach, really addressing my thinking process and enabling me to change my patterns that have been habitual for some time.Anyway, I feel asif I am writing quite a novel, basically things are looking much better-we even bought a new car last week! Whew what a nice holiday present!Now we must be disciplined!!hoping you have a wonderful season and evening-

Thanks for asking about me:)

Patty

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Well now I am glad to hear from you. If you have the time and I KNOW you are going to be busy, but if you do pop down and not flop down like I do, (meaning all the way as in go to bed, lol) let us hear how you are doing. I wish my own daughter had been smart and had a c-section! I believe her health would be much better today if she had. But of no! And I can't even believe her doctor didn't insist but oh well I now know he's not the best doctor either. I can't wait to hear how you and baby both are doing. I'll settle on hearing how you're doing too if you get a chance again before the baby gets here. OK?

I'm a little ashamed to admit it but I'm going to anyway - I have not been feeling just tip top myself and have been having problems with my kids, one has been sick the other doesn't give a ____. When ugly word start coming outta my mouth that is the first sign I'm not feeling good, lol. But kinda lost my cool over an incident involving my grandaughter. I asked something very kind i thought and was made to feel bad over asking and the more I thought about it, the madder I got, lol. I'm going to work on that especially since it is the holidays.

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Hi Joy-

I understand what you mean by the words coming out when you are not feeling yourself-I have said some really bonehead things and actually have what you can only call tantrums when I am not doing so great.Lately I have been quite well, I think my meds are right on and I have found an awesome therapist, so though circumstances may not be ideal(not that they ever will be perfect-)I am behaving in a better manner and also am dealing with things with a better perspective.

I am sorry you have some trouble with your kids,its hard when you have difficulty with those you love.My big thing with my daughter is basically getting her to come sit in her high chair,I have yet to have anything to terrible to deal with she is actually a very good little girl and listens quite well for a two year old.Parenting is still a pretty new challenge for me,and the next challenge will be adding number two.Haven't had him yet-I am still pregnant feels like about a thousand years now!But I am trying to cherish these last few weeks for it is going to be my last pregnancy.My scheduled date is January 17th, less than two weeks away!I am excited and hoping for good things,cant wait to hold my son....

Patty

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I did make it through the holidays with a song in my heart after all and I'm thankful for that. We even got to take a little vacation and took the oldest grandchild which was very relaxing and enjoyable for us. We let her swim in the hotel pool and ate out and just enjoyed her!


First grandchild was a girl and was born on January 15, 2000, btw and I'm waiting to hear the date of your son's birth when you get the time. Hope your two year old loves her new brother as much as my almost 4 year old daughter did her new brother. Both my children were adopted and it was all really exciting for us all when we got word our new addition was here. Daughter expressed one last "oh I wanted a sister" and accepted the new 10 day old really well. Things haven't been all that rosey all the time since, lol, but it is nice to look back upon and recall all just the same. You sound very much like you are doing a great job of being a mother. It was all new to me as well. I didn't even get to have the feeling of baby grow inside me part but it did not stop the love or bonding one bit. I knew it would be my last time as a new mother too because we had to adopt by a different route the second time and knew their rules was two and that's it, lol. But I was so thankful that we did get a second one and found myself busy and didn't ever start up with hubby my originial wish for four kids. Again, thanks for the update. I enjoyed hearing from you and how you are doing.

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Hi Joy-

glad your holidays were nice, I also had a very good holiday this year-my friends came up from out of state to spend new years with us.It was a great time relaxing with old friends.

I think thats wonderful that you adopted your children,its a noble thing to make that kind of choice and Im sure you are a great mom.My c section is scheduled for wednsday the 17th of January,and I am starting to feel some nervousnous for it,I have also been contracting for 3 days now with nothing really coming of it, so Ive been uncomfortable.I am in good spirits though, with an occaisional anxious episode,everything shall be fine.

I went to a poetry reading last night at my local bookstore where a woman read a poem about being a grandmother.It was a beautiful poem and expressed so well what it means to be a grandparent.My mother has come back to life since my daughter entered our world, and it makes my heart happy to see her smile again.I dont really see eye to eye with my mom and we have our issues, but I want to see her happy.

Once upon a time I had thought of a larger family, but I am nearing thirty five and have had much emotional upheaval with each pregnancy.I really dont think I can do it again, and thats when I decided Ill have my tubes tied with the operation.I am also bipolar and have colitis and such so the difficulties Ive had have been in place before I got pregnant each time.I also have hypothyroidism,and since that has been treated, my emotions are more stable,yet during pregnancy with the hormones going haywire, well its been real hard for me.

Financially I am afraid, for it has been difficult with one child, we are a low income family and adding one more will be tough, but we'll do it.I am applying for WIC,my husband is not working -currently he is out on workmans comp and making less than his salary at the school.I am hoping he will not need a second surgery, last time he was injured he was out ten months and it was hard!There were months we had to stretch a 500 dollar check for our little family.I can't get disability(ive been denied four times, I dont have enough work credits-)I can't work(it dosent make sense for me to I cant make much more than minimum wage if I do work for I have no skills .)and my husband cant do his side jobs while on comp.We arein quite a pickle, but if I qualify for WIC that should help a lot.I cant afford to be proud....

At any rate I am blessed to have what I do, a loving husband and beautifuldaughter, with my baby boy coming wednsday-my family will be complete and I can focus on the good things.

Patty

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hear from you patty. i almost missed seeing this and i'm so glad i noticed it. i think you are so smart. don't turn down anything. my own daughter got on WIC, that's what it is for! got to take care of those little ones for sure. i think you are smart to realise that two will be enough also. and it will be you will be so busy. and it is good for those that don't want to have just one. i can't imagine raising just one child if it is possible to have or adopt more, but hey, that's me, not everyone feels the same. and for those that know that one is enough, well, they are smart too. don't give into pressure because someone else thinks differently!

I'm smiling when you talk about your mother. yes, it is wonderful being a grandmother! My first will be 7 years old tomorrow and is here with me tonight. i can't wait until i get sleepy enough to crawl into bed with her and let her kick me the rest of the night, lol. oh yes, i thought it was impossible to love any kid more than the two i adopted. but when the grandchildren came along, well love knows no bounds.

i know it is normal to be a little aphensive about the birth. my daughter was. but i saw that the nurses were so smart that i was thankful for them. i don't really think it was necessary for the doctor to be there to tell you the truth. the nurses took over until the last little bit when the doctor came in. of course yours being a c section will be different. in my daughter's case, she NEEDED a c section but went ahead and had it and lost blood. the doctor should have insisted she get a c section but he didn't. my daughter was about 5 tp 5'1" tops and gained 40 pounds. the baby was 8 pounds 1 ounce so quite big. but she did ok anyway so i'm keeping good thoughts about you. especially since they already have the c section planned.

since i had never experience a birth, a friend let me go to hospital with her. at the last minute it was decided she needed a c section so i did not get to watch. she was ok and so was baby. my daughter let me stay with her. as a matter of fact, there was about 10 people in the room! It was like madri gra! way to many people!! but her husband's folks all thought they had to be there. i'd like to have chased them out, lol.

please, when you feel up to it, let us know how the baby looks, details details and especially how you are doing. it is so exciting. not long to go now. baby will be a good size this summer and will be big enough to splash in a little pool with supervision.

i'll be thinking about you.