AWOL check in: Mags Nanc Befuddled2 Hyper Jacquie *PJ dyslimbic

[waves]

... and the list goes on ... brain fog
where are you?
i wonder about you...
hope you are well, at least 'ok,' hope you will check in.
send you bestest wishes and hugs.

~ waves ~ ( away a bit much myself :( :o :rolleyes: )

[Mari]

Hi, Waves,
What's up?
Last night I was depressed. Today I feel like I am ok.
Need to seep more and do so on a regular schedule. Same stuff.

Oh yeah, and working on going to the gym -- I am now a member of two gyms that I don't go to. The second gym has called me twice looking for me. I guess that they check their computers.

Mari

[waves]

yeah i was grateful for today... i managed to "get in gear" - make lists, take things one step at a time...

what helped a lot... after managing to write out the list...

i got a very kind and patient representative, who spent time to give me more specific and updated information for me. this lifted a mental burden - preoccupations with bureaucratic stuff (there is so......... much).

I am now a member of two gyms that I don't go to. HA HA HA :D :D :D That is PRECIOUS! ... no offense. i do such things too. might as well laugh at ourselves, more pleasant than beating ourselves with a stick, as neither will change the fact anyway. ;)

[mags]

Waves, thank you for thinking of me (thanks to bizi too, I read on the other board that you were asking about me too.) I do think about you guys a lot and I always hope you're doing well. I have found that taking a break from the boards was a good idea for me. There were a lot of things I needed to talk to you all about while BT was down. But in the time it was down, I started therapy again, with a different doctor (a psychologist.) Therapy is going great. It is SO hard though. Life is so hard to figure out. The following is my latest journal entry, hopefully it will help you know where my head is at. Or maybe not. ;)

I had all but given up on life. I thought my life was inconsequential. I thought I wasn't good enough to have a happy and productive life. I thought everyone else knew some kind of secret to life that I just was not privy to. I have recently discovered none of that is true. My eyes are opening to possibilities for the first time ever. How dysfunctional my thoughts were. The thing is, I never had anyone, specifically a mother, to teach me all the things a mother teaches her daughter (or son.) Things like, I am loved, cherished, I can do anything I set my mind to, and I am worthy. My mother died when I was six. My life was flipped upside down, to say the very least. It went from wonderful to dreadful in one instant. There's no need to go into specifics, but recently I have discovered that I have every right to be angry. I have been holding my anger in for a very long time. I turned that anger upon myself, and beat myself up every day. This is so hard, my head is spinning. But, I have realized that I can recover. I am not "disordered". It's going too fast for me though and I'm scared. I'm finding myself having to make decisions I'm not ready to make. I have decided that I have to be my own good mother and raise myself how I should have been raised. It's a journey that I've now started, and there is no turning back...

[Mari]

Dear Mags,

You have been through so much and are so brave.
I'm glad that you have a good therapist to help you.
Mari

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It is great to hear from you, and that things are looking positive. Good luck with the new T. hope to respond a little more fully later hopefully. my parents are already freaking at the phone bill (dialup).

bestest wishes - and drop in when you can - we miss you

~ waves ~

[dyslimbic]

I lurk. I won't post while there are pig ignorant people here who are so quick to think a person is bad when their symptoms get the better of them and are willing to ostracise because of that.
Perhaps when tolerance is shown to all symptoms that a person exhibits and not just some i'll come out of lurk mode.
It's not as though any of us gets to choose how our mental illness manifests itself so it beggars belief that some symptoms have to be branded as so 'against the pale'.

[Grasshopper]

Waves, more than half of the persons you mentioned are now at *******************************.com/ and some of those posting here are splitting their time between locations. Please visit us - Bipolar is grouped in a Mental Health Forum near the end of the index page, so it is easy to find us...

*******************************.com/forumdisplay.php?f=84

Come visit ... please. Everyone is invited to read what's been going on...

MrsD has an awesome expanded forum for all sorts of vitamin, mineral and nutritional supplements of all kind, all under one roof. And is keeping an eye on medications, too.

It is much easier to find your way around there and we are definitely still in early stages, but the management is truly remarkable and incredibly open and responsive.

Dentist Hopper

[waves]

dear dyslimbic,

i am so happy you dropped by, and that you are still reading. i welcome you to post when you feel comfortable.

i understand your position and feel for you in this paradox of being separated from your support group at times you really need people. I hope we will see some evolution here at BrainTalk to address these issues...

there are many ways to climb a mountain (i'm verrry partial to cats, so i'm not going to use that analogy)... i hope we will find one so that you will want to and be able to climb with us come HeII or High Water - ain't that what bipolar is about?

hugs and best wishes

~ waves ~

[waves]

Waves, more than half of the persons you mentioned...I frequent both forums, but am a sporadic poster due to an entanglement of personal reasons right now. (I posted at NeuroTalk back while it was still "thread bare" so to speak.)

I felt like calling out to people... from here... to here. Forum styles can grow, issues resolved. John Lester put a lot of work into this place, a loooooooot of work... long time... I hope Mike Weins can pick up the organizational pieces and that BrainTalk can resume and evolve.

But meanwhile it's like... ppl like to know they are missed, you know?

Thank you for posting and sharing, GrassHopper. I will visit you at NeuroTalk sometime. :)

~ waves ~ sends best wishes

[hypermom]

Hi Waves! Thanks for thinking about me! Sorry I haven't been around. I know this is going to sound weird, but I feel confused about where to post, so in order not to feel guilty, I just haven't posted either place! LOL Like I said, it's weird. But, I miss you guys! So here I am:) -Hyper

[waves]

Hey YOU! ((( hugs )))

I understand about the forums... each of us were given a jolt and no-one's felt quite the same, either.

i too got all muddled up for a while. in fact i can't honestly say i'm unmuddled in that my whole existence is in a muddle, but never mind, i am starting to do Chrissy Snow sentences and i seem to be doing that a lot lately. (mind-muddling :D lol)

Good to see you back!

~ waves ~

[Bdix30]

Has anyone heard from PJ*?