Son attempted suicide

[suede]

I just need to get this out as I'm having a very hard time dealing with this and keep praying for the strength and wisdom to help my son through this difficult time.
My son is 36 and has never really been happy and his first attempt at suicide was at age 10 when he tried to hang himself from a tree in our back yard.
All three of my children and myself included have suicidal tendencies and even when suicide is not a real thought it has always been there in the way we have lived our lives.
I don't belileve that I will ever try to commit suicide again I have to say I do not have a real desire to live and I see this in my children all though the 2 girls still have small children at home I know this helps to keep them going, my son though has not seen his children in years and doubts he will, then he got involved with a younger girl that was preganant and by someone else and had no where to go and of course he put everything he had in to her and her son, heck he almost even signed the birth certificate as the father until I talked him out of it as you see this girl was already 6 months pregnant when he met her for the first time and I knew then she was only looking for someone to take care of her and the baby and I knew that my son would end up geting very hurt, only I just didn't know this much and this bad.
Don't take this wrong I don't blame her for this I do blame her for pushing all the wrong buttons and for things that she did, she knew how much he loves the baby and when she couldn't get her way she would always threaten to take the baby away, the other night it all came to a head after they had been out and my son lost it and slit his wrist, than God I got to him in time before he bleed to death but it was close and I will NEVER get over holding him in my arms and trying to keep the life from flowing out of him, I don't believe I will ever close my eyes with out seeing that nightmare..
He has spent hios brief time in the physc ward and is home now but it is still so hard and touch and go.
I just really needed to get this out to others that know and understand, believe I know how fortunate I am that I have him home now and alive I just need to find a way to help him find the will to want to live and be happy.
He went to church with a couple of friends last night and will start thearpy once again next week, so time wil tell.
Thanks for listening..
Linda

[IndySasha]

{{{{{ Linda }}}}}}

There isnt anything I can do.. I know that ! But I am here as we all are to listen and support you!

{{{{{{{ huggsies }}}}}}}
Indy:rolleyes:

[KathyM]

suede

My heart goes out to your son (and you). In life, there's no guarantee that we'll find the love we need from others. It's not possible to make someone love us if they don't, regardless of what we do.

I learned that the hard way with my ex-husband.

Life is so hard, and obstacles will always be thrown at us. I'm fighting an illness (familial amyloidosis) that has an extremely bleak prognosis - will lose my eyesight, the use of my arms/legs, and I'll be in constant pain.

I do have times when I'm weak and wonder if it's worth it to stick around. I've decided it is because I want to see how my chapter ends. If I skip out early, I'll never see how it was supposed to end. Besides, there's no guarantee it would be any better on the other side if I chose to take my own life. Also, wouldn't it be a hoot if when we pass over, the first question asked of us was "How did you enjoy heaven?" :rolleyes:

I'll keep your son (and you) in my prayers and hope he finds something to keep him strong enough to stay in the race.

[suede]

I had a long post ready to reply and lost it!!

I want to thank you both for your kind words and support though it really helps just to be able to get it out and have responses from those that care and help..

He seems to be doing better each day I pray he continues to do so only I know it it is a hard road and full of ups and downs.
I do know that I will be here for him and my other children as long as God wills it.

Thanks again,
Linda

[The Dude]

God bless you Linda (You & your son)

Your in my thoughts and prayers!!

[suede]

The Dude, Thank you, he was doing better on the new med, but it has leveled off and he is having major mood swings, he sees the dr on Mon. I hope he can keep it togather til then.
Linda

[clouds z]

thats terrible

i hope both of you recover