Scarred I may fail sobriety

[Kashis]

Its been awhile I think a year since I have been here I am more on the dv pages then anything but I need to be here I am scarred I am going to las vegas and I am terrified I may have a drink I am 6 yrs sober I keep thinking of them tropical drinks but knowing that they can kill me with all the meds on so I need support real bad on this one I know I can stay sober its a fear within side of me I don't know why this is so tough for me I have been other places and sober I just need some kind of support right now the last time I drank on meds I barfed for a week and broke all the blood vessels in my face and thats whats keeping me from wanting to drink


I know there is NA tropical drinks but thats just to much of a temptation for me what do I do HELP Krissi

[Buttons2]

First give yourself credit Krissi! Those tropical drinks are available everywhere,not just in Vegas. Decide beforehand what kind of non-alcohoic drink you would like & stick to it. Maybe something that fizzes? And you can still have the fruit right? Maybe someone will come on here with a good suggestion......

Relax & have fun in the sun!

[houghchrst]

Krissi I am sure you will be just fine. You already know all the tricks and have all the skills you need to stay sober. Fear is a wonderful thing when it comes to staying clean and sober. Works great for me. I have a real thing about drinking non alcoholic drinks though. For me they are too close to the real thing and drinking them is playing pretend. Let's pretend I am drinking a margarita, or a, my favorite, daiquiri.

Recently I went to a very upscale wedding and it never occured to me that there would be an open bar. I never even thought about drinking or the temptation. We got there and the other couple at the table came back with their drinks and I felt my whole being kick in with that special feeling that comes when as an alcoholic you are ready to have a drink. It was so hard. The first half an hour my fiance who is also recovering bantered back and forth about getting a drink and what there was, including virgin drinks, but we knew we could not. We didn't but since I have been clean and sober for 9 years that has to have been one of the closest calls I have had in years. Fear........fear is a wonderful reminder.

You just remember all the reasons you have not to take a drink and if I were you I wouldn't even pretend.

[Bahamaroot]

I stopped drinking a few years ago, not because of alcoholism but for other medical reasons. Over time I would show up at a party or holiday gathering and felt proud that I could enjoy the occation without drinking. I know the temptation was not nearly as great for me as with alcoholism but the pride was still there. Consentrate more on the pride of knowing you don't have to drink to have a good time! :)

[houghchrst]

Aaaahhh, yes!!! Jeff is right on. Don't forget the great sense of pride that comes from resisting the temptation. The way you will feel the next morning when you open your eyes and realize that you made it over yet another hurdle.

[Kashis]

Thank you all so much I think I will stick with coke or 7 up I will stay away from the ice t as that reminds me of long island ice teas so yes just pop for this girl you are all so inspiring I know what you mean about the wedding thing and open bar but the fun part of not drinking at a wedding I found is I bring out the camera at the end of the night to take pictures the photographer doesn't get everyone totally sloshed and then I think man I am so glad I won't have there headache in the morning or be puking all day or the drunk I was the start again hair of the dog drunk

Yah I am going to be ok cause there are people like you in this world to keep a great support team going as we all have been there and sometimes we all want to go back but know in our minds its so not worth it I am proud to be sober 6 yrs and when I come back I am going to post how still sober I am as I can not just have one as one is never enough and 2 is too many or however its said I have GOD walking with me and the Serenity prayer whenever temptation kicks in Thanks all we need to kick this forum up with more people I know I have alot of groups going on but I will take on another to be part of helping a cause SOBRIETY MATTERS Hugs Krissi

[houghchrst]

Krissi I hope you are doing well and that the wedding was lovely.

[Kashis]

Today is the test of all tests on my way to vegas I have confidence I have prayed and I have the power of being proud and if at all I feel a relapse coming I will pray the serenity prayer till the feeling passes

Coffee and pop for me

I can't say that champange and Long Island ice teas haven't crossed my mine but I know they could kill me and I have lots to live for and one is never enough and two is way too many so I will be ok and thinkin of all of you as your kind words are enough to get me through also

GOD GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE AMEN

[houghchrst]

AMEN Krissi!!! I will keep praying for you to remain strong on your trip. Have a great time. I think this will be easier than you think and you are well prepared.

Here are some warm hugs to help keep you safe and sober {{{{{{{{{{{{{{KRISSI}}}}}}}}}}} and hey if you need us I am sure there is a puter there somewhere and probably all kinds of meetings. After all it is Vegas.


Have a safe, sober, wonderful time!!!

[Buttons2]

Hope you enjoy warm & sunny weather,I have total faith in you not drinking Krissi. Enjoy your trip! Look forward to reading all about it......(((hugs)))

[Kashis]

I STAYED SOBER !!!!!!! I didn't have a hard time at all the alcohol smell made me sick the only time I had a problem was my hubby had a bloody mary and its smelled great I made him walk away and ordered my coffee otherwise I had no problem with even seeing tropical drinks either I am so proud of me I was so scarred but even sober I came home with 2 sprained ankles a bruised tail bone and a bruised ear drum
Now thats crazy but It was great to get away and I am ready to hit the air again and see vegas that I missed oh well 25 yr anniversary next year thats gotta mean something LOL Hugs Krissi PS Thank you all for having faith in me and supporting me you were in my heads when I was there and I heard the you will be ok be proud from all of you Hugs Krissi

[Buttons2]

Good for you! I never had any doubts myself,you're a strong woman.....thanks for posting. How did you end up with all those injuries if you don't mind telling?

[houghchrst]

Ha! Krissi, I knew you could! You should be extremely proud of yourself. Great job!!

Oh my goodness I hope you are okay!!

[Kashis]

I walked the strip in sandles back and forth from mgm to circus circus and back then got back to the hotel soaked my feet in cool water in the tub and decided just to take a bath my feet were so swollen that when I got up I feel and twisted both ankles

the eardrums that was the plane the nerve damage thats new to old injuries from abuse
and the tail bone lets just leave that one in vegas lol its kinda funny again I was not beat and was stone cold sober I just didn't pack comfortable shoes and due to tn and tmj I can't chew gum so I didn't have nothing to suck on or chew landing I know better for next year

Hugs Krissi

[Bahamaroot]

Hi Krissi,

We all knew you were strong and are very proud of you! :D

Hopefull next time you can come back with fewer injuries! ;)

(((HUGS)))

[Kashis]

well its time to get the foot checked as its getting worse but even injured I did it sober and as weird as that sounds I feel good that I did get injured that way Hugs Krissi

PS THANKS ALL FOR YOUR CONCERN AND SUPPORT Krissi