hi all

[mama sue]

Just to get the thread started again............How is everyone? I hope you will find your way back here. I know I didn't post a lot here, but I kept up on how all of you are doing. Please check in and let everyone know how you are.

[Earth Mother 2 Angels]

{{{Sue}}} ~

Somehow, it seems fitting that you and I should be the first ones to post here, as Braintalk regenerates.

In the past three + years, since Michael received his wings, I have developed an amazing spiritual relationship with him, which has softened the agonizing yearning created by our physical separation. Michael has gifted me with so many signs to let me know that he is always with me.

As this forum became rather inactive (before the Summer '06 Crash), I gravitated to another grief forum, where I discovered the importance of talking about my grief with other grieving parents, who could truly understand my pain. There, I learned that grieving parents share many common experiences and feelings. It helps to know that you are not alone, and that what you are going through, how others react to you, and how you feel are typical among all grieving parents.

So, I encourage every parent, who drops by this forum, to start a conversation about your child and your grief experience. It's healthy to let it out.

I also encourage you to take care of yourself, as grief is very stressful, and it's easy to let your physical needs slide when your world is turned upside down. Eat healthy foods, drink plenty of water, exercise, take walks and spend time in nature, take vitamins and supplements to boost your immune system, allow yourself plenty of time to rest and to sleep.

My daily prayer for every parent throughout the world, who is grieving for their child, is that God grant them peace and comfort and that their children will visit them in their dreams and make their presence very known to their parents~ My prayers are with you all ~

I love you, Sue. You're the reason I am a member of Braintalk. Your Mattitude and my Michael brought us together. I'm so grateful they did.

Love & Light,
Rose

[mama sue]

Yes, it does seem fitting that we should meet again at this site. I love you too. I can't believe how the time has gone by. It seems only yesterday that we met, well cyber met :) and chatted about our precious children.

I hope that our connection never ends. You have brought me through many rough times and I hope that any parent going through grief will find there way here and let us all gather them in our arms.

Many blessings to you.................

[mamafigure]

Hi, I don't know if you remember me. I posted here a couple of times on the old BT.

Tonight I am up because I have a colonoscopy later today. It has been very stressful, as I see a surgeon on Halloween and am now up against the 10th anniversary of the death of Michael.

I still miss him so much. It's funny, there are a couple of songs that I say are his, and as I was going to the drs the other day, totally stressed, his song came on before I could clear our driveway. This has happened many times.

Lots of love to all the moms out there with empty arms,
mama

[mama sue]

{{{Mamafigure}}}
How did your colonoscopy go????

I am sorry for the pain you are feeling. 10 years without your Michael :( It's a pain we all share sadly!! I will keep you in thought and prayer..........

I am NOT surprised at all about the song coming on. I too have experienced this on several occasions. It is your sweet Michael letting you know that you are being watched over. Many blessings to you.

[Hayley's mom]

((SUE)) ((ROSE))! Always thinking and praying for both your families. I think of you both often and am so thankful for you 2 over the years - so inspirational! ((HUGS))! ~Cathy

[The Dude]

God bless everyone :)

[calady]

I haven't stopped by this site since it has been back up, so for some reason, I deceided to see who was posting on this site. Too bad that we even have to, but so good to have others that we can share our grief feelings with. Its been almost 5 years now that our son left us, it was on March 23, 2002. Jeff was 37 when he passed, he had muscular dystrophy and was not supposed to live past his teen years, so he surprised everyone, including all of the medical profession. He was a great person, had the disposition of an angel, and I miss him everyday. He just loved life, loved his computer, and loved to watch all sports, used to take him to the Dodger games for several years in a row til he became too feeble. Will talk with anyone on this board, if I can be of help to any body, don't hesitate to post to me.

Celia

[mama sue]

{{{Celia}}}
Thank you for stopping by and sharing your heart with us. I am sorry for your loss. Five years since Jeff passed:( I know that from my own heart I can say that it never gets easier.....just different. We just had the five year anniversary of Matthew and it so many ways it seems like a lifetime, yet also as if I were holding him yesterday. I am just gald we all have a place we can share our pain, hope and love. Take care of your self and know that we are glad you are here.:)

[hereandnow]

God bless all you parents who have lost a child. I have not and I can't even begin to imagine the pain you have gone through. Mam Sue you seem such a "together" person and yet you have coped with this loss twice. Your heart must be breaking but you can give words of comfort to others who are suffering so much. You are a very special person. My heart goes out to all of you.

[Still.Smiling]

Hi dear souls, I used to visit now & again. Especially in April.
April 7th - 19 yrs ago, at the age of 14, I lost my baby brother Mark. He always seemed like my own son, as our age differences are so far apart. I taught him to walk, to talk, took him to museums. I even saved his life twice. I guess he wasn't meant to stay here long....
Before Mark, I lost two early pregnancies - tough when you deal with infertility as well. After that, four more. And then after having a perfect little boy, I got pregnant with a little girl - Madison Leigh. With all the losses before, we thought, a boy & a girl, how wonderful. Everything seemed to go so well. No problems like the other pregnancies.
And then in April (26th) I started bleeding. I didn't feel my precious baby move. We rushed to the hospital where they listened for a heartbeat, but couldn't hear one. I knew she was gone. They performed an ultrasound, and together we saw our sweet baby girl; so wanted, so loved, so perfect. All ten fingers, all ten toes. No heartbeat.
I could hear them saying that; telling me she had died. I could feel the bleeding coming faster. No. I was crying so much, so hard that my head felt like it was breaking in two....or was it my heart?
I had to deliver her they said, but I knew if I was fully awake I would die from grief. I had plunged my hands into the bloodied waters of my toilet to find the tiny remains of third month miscarried ones to deliver to hospital pathology labs (to find out WHY this was happening over and over and over) GOD it sounds so SCIENTIFIC!
But Madison was a full grown baby. Ready to come home with me...and her big brother and waiting daddy. I just wasn't strong enough to do this one last thing for her. Now, I regret it. But back then, I was falling apart; falling off the world. Wondering why on earth a child so perfect would be plunged into the darkness of death?
This year she would have been 16 on 4/26/08. To think I would be worrying about such things as her driving & boyfriends &....if things didn't go wrong that day. And we never found out why.

Lynnie
Mom to 6 tiny ^i^
Madison Leigh b/d 4/26/92 & 3 miracles:Harrison, Patrick, Alexandria
big sis to Mark Patrick 5/15/74-4/07/89