sad times

[martians8mybrian]

:( :( :(

just sad times.

please... don't say you've been here, because you haven't. please don't say it's my bp, because it isn't. please don't say it will all be ok, because it won't.

:( :( :(

[Pamster]

I'm sorry you're going through such a sad time. I wish we could help, but all I can tell you is that you're among friends here and if you need to talk we're here.

[martians8mybrian]

thank you. i have many friends here.

i don't recognize your nic... how long have you been here? it doesn't matter..just wondering.

[Me BP?]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so sad right now. I wish there was something I could do or say to make it go away but I can't. :(

It will by okay. I know you don't feel that way right now but this too shall pass. Try to hang in there.

[Pamster]

I've been on BT for ages, since 99" but that was mostly in the autism forum. I am really new to the BT BP forum, mostly because I was afraid to post. Still had shame issues and fear of saying the wrong things. I was dx'd about two years ago and have been actively posting here on the BP forum for about six months, I count the time BT was down in that so it's more like about three months before the BT server crash.

[Mari]

Dear Martians,
I won't claim to have any understanding or wisdom.
:(
Please know that you are not alone. You can post here.
I am very very sorry that you are sad.
Mari

[Bdix30]

Hi Martians
Been quite a while, its good to see you back - even if you arent feeling too hot. I may not understand - but we can listen. Hope to hear from you soon.

((hugs))

[bizi]

more hugs
((((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

[martians8mybrian]

i don't even know what i can say... it's a damn novel, and a bad one. it's just nice to know ther are people out there.

life is hard.

[Pamster]

I'm sorry things are still really rough. I agree though, life certainly is hard. And sometimes it doesn't get easier, it just gets tougher. I wish you luck in getting through another day and then another day until it's another week, and on and on until maybe one day it's not so hard to get out of bed. I know I have days where if I could I would just NOT get out of bed.

Wish there was more I could offer you maritans, other then this cyberhug (((((hugs)))))

[martians8mybrian]

thanks. i don't have any problem getting out of bed.... even at my most depressed i never have. i seem to be able to face every agonizing moment of every day.

as for life being hard, it's like it was when i didn't understand how thin i was...until i really did get fat. i used to think life was hard, until i understood what that meant.

[Mari]

Dear Martians,
Are you depressed or sad?
Dumb question. I'm sorry. Are you handling the sadness. I guess that is what I am asking. Are you coping mechanisms in place and are you working with your pdoc?

Your analogy about being thin and then looking back on that time is good because I used to feel that way about being fat when I was actually thin. I hope these sad times will pass.

In the meantime, we are here for you.
Mari

[martians8mybrian]

Hi Mari, there are dumb questions in the world but that isn't one of them. I am glad you asked actually. There is some depression, but it's not an issue, and it's as a result of the sadness. It is a BIG heavy sadness. I can't really explain it..this isn't the place or time.

i have a coping system in place. i have people to help me. and i do work with my pdoc. There isn't much he can do except talk because this isn't a medication issue.

i will be moving in december. no idea what kind of internet access i will have after that. i'll have it, but it may be sporadic. i'm thinking of taking a semester off from school, but i am not sure. there are good reasons to do it, and ones not to.

[Pamster]

I'm sorry you're having such sadness in your life. I don't want to trigger anything by talking about my own dark days, I just want to offer you another cyber hug and to let you know if you need to talk we'll be here for you martians8mybrian. ((((((hug))))))

Moving is never easy, I wish you luck with it, I personally am relieved to not have to move in the next couple of months, but I think a move might be ahead next year sometime soon, but we wouldn't move where there was no cable access, we've just gotten too used to it to go without it now. ;)

I am glad you have a coping system in place though, that can really help so much, to have people to talk to who really understand.

[hamster]

I am sorry you're feeling so sad. I just wanted you to know that I am here to support you like you have supported me. It means a lot to me and it is making my prolems more tolerable to gain the understanding that you and the other gals have shared.

I am sending positive thoughts your way. Your kindness has been a blessing to me. Please don't forget that.

[waves]

oh my mind is spinning... wondering... i don't know... i won't ask... but if and when you wish, you know we will listen to the sad novel.

meanwhile. i am so sorry you are in this sadness. :( it sounds all welled up inside, i'm glad your pdoc is helping you. one step at a time.

i wish i could send you a little bunch of fragrant mountain violets.

hugs

~ waves ~ from across the ocean

[martians8mybrian]

Thanks guys. I appreciate it.