Thistles sudden death.

[Cry Tears]

Last night around 7:30 our little black Scotty, Thistle took her last breath.
My husband held her in his arms comforting her.
She started breathing a little "funny" in the afternoon.
We were wondering if it was "time" to take her in.....she's had a very large tumor on her side....one vet said cancer.
We just didn't deal with it because she was 11 years old and very obese.
There's so many other things going on in our lives so Thistles needs took a back burner. She wasn't in pain as she ran around and played just fine till yesterday.
So when her breathing turned into "Chain stoking" around 7PM we knew there was no turning back and was on her way out.
It really hasn't hit me yet...but my husband has just been broken.
I found him sobbing while trying to rake leaves close to her grave.
I don't know what to greive over...my husband telling me he found another lump in his mouth (he's had several bouts of mouth cancer....starts out this same way each time...sigh!)
If I start crying, I probably wont be able to stop. Thistle was my special dog, so very sweet and loving...unusual for a Scottish Terrior, aka Holy terrors! We last our Wheaton Scotty last year....now we don't have any Scotty dogs....just our old Lab Satin and the 3 kitties.
Gosh....why do we love them so much....and our hearts get wrapped around them like they were our children....but they are our children!
I'm just numb.
Blessings, cheryl

[WhataBreeze]

One who views this Thread including Franky and I, will immediately feel that pulling of the heart. Franky, is my first experience of what "Man's best friend," is all about and even that much more do to my chronic illness. It didn't take long before I became "We."

As Thistles returns to our maker, she will have her place as those who say the dog was blessed to us in a reflection god. We who have, as well as We who will, pray for Thistle's path. G-d Bless...

Franky and Breeze

[dahlek]

Think on it this way, there was no long drawn out pain and function issues, it is, to me a blessing when one of Gods creatures sort of decides, or just lets go. There have been ever so many times in my life when these creatures know more about the realities of life and other things than we do.

Pictures are great, but, keeping their spirit and soul near to your 'mind's eye' and heart is the best comfort of all. Don't know about you, but all the critters I have belonged to...they suckered ME into it all, after all, are in those places first, the places pictures can't always capture...and THEY ARE THE BEST parts of some of my life!. Just replay them at the right times, for all the gifts he gave you, and others. It should be a joyful picture, knowing you from here.

Hugs and fuzzies? - j

BTW-my BIG guy, a 18lb cat, died over 20 years ago, w/other good beasts in betwen, and, I sorely miss them all, we each give in this world-people and creatures all. We are special in the trying.

[joy]

Cheryl, I'm so sorry. I know how much you must hurt. But also know you wouldn't have missed a minute of any of your pet's life for anything. And you will remember always why each was so special to you.

[joy]

oh me and my brain! I just remembered and had to come back and check. I forgot your mentioning your husbands's new lump. I know that is scary. Years ago I had a precancerous thing in my jaw and that was pretty frightening to me. You all will be in my thoughts and prayers. Let us know how things go. Hope your husband and you can find some way to make it easier to get through this new scare.

[Cry Tears]

Was my husbands standing in the rain sobbing loudly like a baby.
We had a huge fight the night Thistle died...he blamed me for not rushing her to ER vet...claimed she suffered. I dont know....anyway....anger got in the way of greiving...then he dropped the C bomb on me....told me he's got more cancer going on in his mouth. He's battled tongue cancer since he was 36 starting in 1985.
Its been a dark cloud hanging over our heads...always worried....every few years more cancer, more surgery....more heart ache.
On top of all this....the 2 girsl we adopted turned against us and have shunned us for years.....My husband really took Thistle death very hard.
He's just not handling any of this...and I'm feeling pretty rotten after all the mud slinging I did that night....even told him I hated him since day 1.

I really went all out with the awful hateful things I said to him. I was terribly angry and also shocked that Thistle died so suddenly.
My health hasn't been that great either.....the Crohns has spread to my stomach and I can't hardly eat a thing...vomit all the time.
And on top of this I have muscle weakness, fatigue and muscle and joint pain.
So our plates are over flowing with just too much "stuff".
Life is so unfair....we loved the girls deeply...but were older when we adopted them out of Mexico....oh well...we thought they would love us, thats why we spent every penny we had to get them and immigrate them. Sadly that investment went bankrupt....we'd have a million in savings had we left it there instead of spending it foolishly on them back in 1980.
We kick oursleves over and over...why did we do that?!?!?
But we only wanted to be loved....shoulda gotten more dogs!
But they too break our hearts. I am so sad right now...so remorseful and sorry I treated my husband so terribly...now this. Cheryl

[The Dude]

Im so sorry for the loss of your friend!!!!

Peace and love to you :)

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[joy]

Hi Chery. We all say and do things we regret. I'm sure your husband knows this too. And our hearts sometimes overrule our brains when it comes to helping others. I once gave away a van to a woman I thought was worse off than me. I later saw her DRIVING herself, mother and child. I gave her the van because her son worked with my husband and he was such a good boy, sorta and he was always telling my hubby about having to drive his mother and sister and her wheelchair around in a pickup truck. Yeah right. And hubby once sprung for tires for the truck with the boy's promise to pay him back. Never saw it of course. Wish I had kept the van as our church now needs one to transport children for Kids for the King group. I heard she later sold it, now why didn't I think of that or just keep it to store tools that keep getting stole out on the farm. ha. I sorta got a lesson outta that one, lol. Hope things get better, let me know, will you?

[joy]

Cheryl, try not to let that get you down too much. My two are adopted too and I think came with their own problems about being given up before. If the girls were close, they probably are sticking together. Now my own two, the boy has turned against his sister and both live here in town and it breaks my heart, and my daughter's. But there is not much I can really do but try and do like you, keep worrying and wondering will it ever change, and for the better.

[panheadvic]

I Am S Srry For Yo Loss. I Had To Put My Afrian Grey Parrot Down 2 Years Ago, I Had Her Cremated. She Is With Me All The Time. I Had Her For 20 Years, She Was Also Blind From Diabetes. But She Was Still, (zak).. When I Go, We Go Together..i Still Look At Her Picture And Tell Her I Miss Her And Love Her. 20 Years Is A Long Time, I Took Her On So Many Road Trips, Back And Forth, Form Florida Keys Where Lived For 19 Years, Then I Had To Come Back To Mn. For My R.s.d. Got So Bad. I Rented From A Guy Who Burned Wood, The Doc Said The Smoke Got Into Her Little Lungs, I Knew She Was Not Breathing Well. So I Decided Not To Let Her Suffer Any Longer, And Took Her In And Gav Her, Her Last Kiss, And Held Her While She Passed. I Still Cry Everyday....so I Knw What You Are Going Through, Yes They Are Youre Kids. She Was My Best Friend, For Ever.
God Bless You, It's O.k. To Cry, Express Your Feelings. For They Know Yu Wil Never Forget. Panheadvic

[panheadvic]

In Memory Of (thistle) And (zak)...........panheadvic, May They Be At Peace..

[lor]

crytears, I don't usually come to this thread so I just saw this. I'm sorry you lost little Thistle.
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