blimeyitslymie
11-04-2006, 09:42 AM
:(
I am struggling and need a place to dump. This has been a horrible week. Most profoundly, my husband's cousin was run over by a school bus driver who had road rage :eek: . While all lives are precious, this young man lost his life way too early. He was a loving father to two boys, aged 6 and 8, a devoted husband, an esteemed physician, professor and active community member. A day later my best friends mother died suddenly. Grief is all around us.
Then my insurance company yet again denied my IV coverage. Flouting the new IDSA guidelines in my face. Last level of appeal. Don't have energy to go to outside review board. In the meantime, my SX worsen, particularly amnesia, bone crushing fatigue and arthritis. My LLMD has me on two different oral ABX, antiviral, antiyeast (yes still battling the thrush and such from the spring) and a ton of other meds to combat the side effects of them. I am herxing daily, for weeks now, and just feel like doggie doo-doo (no offense to pet lovers).
Then my husband tells me that he's pretty certain that he will be offered a new job (which is a very good thing), but that it is six states away, not such a good thing. If he's offered it, it will move quickly. Which means that he'll work up there on weekdays and come home on weekends, until the house is sold and packed up ... I feel so overwhelmed. I am having a tough enough time taking care of the kids while he travels for his current job in an area where I have friends to turn to (no family in either locations) ... but even the thought of getting the house ready to put on the market, and then all the packing ...
Deaths and relocating are tough for all people, but when your health is compromised, and you can't get the treatment you need, the treatment that actually began to help you after 15 years of being misdiagosed, mis-medicated, mis-treated (e.g. electric shock therapy for depression from pain that they thought was imaginary because no tests showed a dX) ... I am singing to the choir here, but thanks for letting me whine a few bars.
Blimey :(
I am struggling and need a place to dump. This has been a horrible week. Most profoundly, my husband's cousin was run over by a school bus driver who had road rage :eek: . While all lives are precious, this young man lost his life way too early. He was a loving father to two boys, aged 6 and 8, a devoted husband, an esteemed physician, professor and active community member. A day later my best friends mother died suddenly. Grief is all around us.
Then my insurance company yet again denied my IV coverage. Flouting the new IDSA guidelines in my face. Last level of appeal. Don't have energy to go to outside review board. In the meantime, my SX worsen, particularly amnesia, bone crushing fatigue and arthritis. My LLMD has me on two different oral ABX, antiviral, antiyeast (yes still battling the thrush and such from the spring) and a ton of other meds to combat the side effects of them. I am herxing daily, for weeks now, and just feel like doggie doo-doo (no offense to pet lovers).
Then my husband tells me that he's pretty certain that he will be offered a new job (which is a very good thing), but that it is six states away, not such a good thing. If he's offered it, it will move quickly. Which means that he'll work up there on weekdays and come home on weekends, until the house is sold and packed up ... I feel so overwhelmed. I am having a tough enough time taking care of the kids while he travels for his current job in an area where I have friends to turn to (no family in either locations) ... but even the thought of getting the house ready to put on the market, and then all the packing ...
Deaths and relocating are tough for all people, but when your health is compromised, and you can't get the treatment you need, the treatment that actually began to help you after 15 years of being misdiagosed, mis-medicated, mis-treated (e.g. electric shock therapy for depression from pain that they thought was imaginary because no tests showed a dX) ... I am singing to the choir here, but thanks for letting me whine a few bars.
Blimey :(