new here also I've had brain tumor & brain anuersym surgery both

[shellee]

HI everyone!I've finally decided I have to talk to someone that has gone through something similar to what I have. My family doesn't underatand what I'm going through, it's been awhile since my surgeries.Trying to get my life back on track is very hard!! I had my 1st surgery for a meningioma brain tumor on september 24 2004 (worst headache of my life!!) Still had the headaches tho- sent home fom the hospital right before halloween in 2004 I was home a week & called back saying they found an anuerysm on nov. 10th 2004 had my second surgery(hubby's 40th what a great present I gave him huh!)was hospitalized till right before christmas ( I had paralysis on my left side both times . 1st time my left leg.After my second surgery from the left side of my face all the way down to my toes. Needless to say I had to learn how to walk again. Doing pretty good I think.The problem I'm having now is my emotions & very very bad short term memory I cry at everything & then can't stop I'm very emotional even watching tv ,wether it be sad or Happy, I cry at everything:Is this normal?? I've had medication from my doctor & that doesn't seem to help I takee meds to sleep at night I'm constantly hurting somewhere & since all this has happened I've gained 35 lbs. I have 2 bulging discs in my back my surgeon won't touch He say's I should be thankful I'm alive (which I thank God everyday)my doc. says I'm difficult & demanding!! I'm back to having headaches && it's driving me crazy they feel like sinus headaches I go to the surgeon next week but he's very hard to talk to. I need to understand why all this is happening I haven't worked since 04 & they denied me dissability. M life is at a stand still & I need some ideas as to what to do or how to move forward (please don't tell me to find another surgeon (we only have the 1 around this area & he knows it!!) he's very good at what he does buthe is not COMPASSIONATE AT ALL). am I feeling sorry for myself or is this the brain telling me something?? any input would be great thanks for taking the time to read this.

[tigerchef1969]

Hi, shellee. I like the song .(If youre going through hell keep on moving) I am amazed at your story and a whole lot of others on this site, I would be happy to chat with you anytime It sounds like you are a fighter, just as I. About the deppresion if you havent talk with your doctor if you havent. From what I have been reading it is simply put normal for you to feel the way you do. I go through these feelings alot as well. As far as youre family I have been there as well. hopefully we can chat again if not, You can get through this shellee. I am only speaking on the spiritaul, But I never believed until this happened to me and I firmly believe that God does not give us anything that we cant overcome.

God Bless you and youre family

Regards
Jeff

[tigerchef1969]

shellee, Sorry but about youre Doctor, I understand that too excaclty, I recently conveyed to Him my feelings about him and our relationship is a whole different situation now.

[jess2002]

Hi there shellee welcome just sorry you have had to join us I still get headaches 5yrs on however they do get better not as bad. Jess

[habs]

HI everyone!I've finally decided I have to talk to someone that has gone through something similar to what I have. My family doesn't underatand what I'm going through, it's been awhile since my surgeries.Trying to get my life back on track is very hard!! I had my 1st surgery for a meningioma brain tumor on september 24 2004 (worst headache of my life!!) Still had the headaches tho- sent home fom the hospital right before halloween in 2004 I was home a week & called back saying they found an anuerysm on nov. 10th 2004 had my second surgery(hubby's 40th what a great present I gave him huh!)was hospitalized till right before christmas ( I had paralysis on my left side both times . 1st time my left leg.After my second surgery from the left side of my face all the way down to my toes. Needless to say I had to learn how to walk again. Doing pretty good I think.The problem I'm having now is my emotions & very very bad short term memory I cry at everything & then can't stop I'm very emotional even watching tv ,wether it be sad or Happy, I cry at everything:Is this normal?? I've had medication from my doctor & that doesn't seem to help I takee meds to sleep at night I'm constantly hurting somewhere & since all this has happened I've gained 35 lbs. I have 2 bulging discs in my back my surgeon won't touch He say's I should be thankful I'm alive (which I thank God everyday)my doc. says I'm difficult & demanding!! I'm back to having headaches && it's driving me crazy they feel like sinus headaches I go to the surgeon next week but he's very hard to talk to. I need to understand why all this is happening I haven't worked since 04 & they denied me dissability. M life is at a stand still & I need some ideas as to what to do or how to move forward (please don't tell me to find another surgeon (we only have the 1 around this area & he knows it!!) he's very good at what he does buthe is not COMPASSIONATE AT ALL). am I feeling sorry for myself or is this the brain telling me something?? any input would be great thanks for taking the time to read this.
Hi there, know exactly how you feel. I am new to this site, actually you are the first person I have replied to. I also had a brain aneursym 5 months ago. I am fortunate, I can walk. But I cannot sleep, very depressed and cry a lot as well. Also, headaches have started up again in the last 5 -6 weeks. Waiting for some tests to come back. It feels like forever. My heart goes out to you and you are not alone. That is why I decided to join the group, so I don't think I am crazy. Short term memory is horrible and I cannot even cough or sneeze without pain shooting to my head. I am sorry your doctor is so incooperative, I seen the surgeon only once for 5 minutes 3 months after my surgery. He is sweet and I thank him but he can also be a little cold. now my family doctor has sent me to a neurologist and a neuropsychologist. Ever consider that?

Hope all goes well with you.