peacegirl
02-29-2008, 09:54 AM
Hi I am very "ify" on posting here as I have read the posts here and dont need or wish to recieve lots of flack and such. I belonged to b.t. before the major crash a good bit ago and I rejoined when it came back up but I also joined another. and find that place a more fitting community for me .
I am doing a tug of war with the issue that I am more then likely a bi sexual female. I have t.n. and if I post more on that issue it will give away who I am if it hasnt already :eek:. I have not come out to anyone as I am still trying to figure myself out. I am married and have been to the same man for 22 years. I also in the past have had a beautiful relationship with another female. and heck even in middle school and high school have enjoyed that type of loving relationship. I have always kept that part of me private. My hub only has a "good idea" that I like females as well as males or him since I don't have relations with any other man but him. I have a friend that I have known for almost 4 years that I find I love very much ,we have never been physical or anything but I have told her my thoughts and how I feel about her. I have not done much since this illness became part of me 9 years ago... illness I meen t.n.. I would like to talk with others who may understand me and also would like some advice on how to deal with an illness while keeping a good outlook on life and what may become in the future. I fear and hate to think what my family would do or say if some day I were brave enough to come out of my hiding spot and say hey I love this lady here , I want a devorice and want my freedom. I would rather "talk' through the private messaging here then post to the whole room . I dont want anyone telling me I am a sinner or wicked and evil and that God hates me. Because that is all b.s. I have over come the thought that my illness is because of my sexuality and I KNOW MY GOD LOVES ME!!!!!
Thanks for your understanding open mind and any responses I may get.
Peace from
Peacegirl
p.s. gee this place is full of em I do not think I will post here anymore HASNT EVEN BEEN UP A FULL DAY . :( I CAN GET JUST AS MUCH HASTLE OUT MY FRONT DOOR!
I am doing a tug of war with the issue that I am more then likely a bi sexual female. I have t.n. and if I post more on that issue it will give away who I am if it hasnt already :eek:. I have not come out to anyone as I am still trying to figure myself out. I am married and have been to the same man for 22 years. I also in the past have had a beautiful relationship with another female. and heck even in middle school and high school have enjoyed that type of loving relationship. I have always kept that part of me private. My hub only has a "good idea" that I like females as well as males or him since I don't have relations with any other man but him. I have a friend that I have known for almost 4 years that I find I love very much ,we have never been physical or anything but I have told her my thoughts and how I feel about her. I have not done much since this illness became part of me 9 years ago... illness I meen t.n.. I would like to talk with others who may understand me and also would like some advice on how to deal with an illness while keeping a good outlook on life and what may become in the future. I fear and hate to think what my family would do or say if some day I were brave enough to come out of my hiding spot and say hey I love this lady here , I want a devorice and want my freedom. I would rather "talk' through the private messaging here then post to the whole room . I dont want anyone telling me I am a sinner or wicked and evil and that God hates me. Because that is all b.s. I have over come the thought that my illness is because of my sexuality and I KNOW MY GOD LOVES ME!!!!!
Thanks for your understanding open mind and any responses I may get.
Peace from
Peacegirl
p.s. gee this place is full of em I do not think I will post here anymore HASNT EVEN BEEN UP A FULL DAY . :( I CAN GET JUST AS MUCH HASTLE OUT MY FRONT DOOR!