Sober 5 Yrs

[Kashis]

I used to try to drink the pain of abuse away alot and when I realized it just got worse I kept drinking more and more I would drink from 5pm-9am every day rum beer tequlia whatever I could get my hands on I just wanted to black everything out I felt if I stayed drunk then I could handle things and then one day it was 9 am and I was still drinking from the night before and said I can't do this no more so 3 weeks later I set a date and that was it I have tried to quit alot sometimes a year sometimes 30 days and sometimes a week so this has been a big accomplishment for me and I am proud to say I am still sober after 5 yrs and Dang proud of myself yes gloating I am sorry but abuse got to me and I needed a way out and so glad one morning I woke up and knew I had to just cope with it and alcohol wouldn't fix it I didn't realize I was drinking to hide the hurt until I stopped and I saw the whole pic this is when I started dealing with my TBI I could have drank to make that pain go away but it wouldn't have worked I knew I couldn't solve anything by drinking as I would wake up and it would still be there so I had to start again
I have survived alot and now I have survied something else sobriety I just had to post this I worked hard to get here and it is now the begining of my NEW YEAR thanks for listining

[joy]

Hi Krissi. Well I am proud of you too! You deserve an atta girl for getting past all the horrible things that years of abuse did to your body but likely worse to your brain and way of thinking. You survived it and are now doing remarkably well it seems. I am not so sure I could say the same if I had your history and background of things happening to myself.

I wish you continued success Krissi.

[Buttons2]

Big pat on the back to you Krissi! You have the rest of your life ahead of you,being sober is the only way to live it. Five years is a long time,may the next five bring even better times for you!

Buttons

[tic chick]

*sparkle krissi!!!

congratulations on this great achievement, krissi! you have a tremendous amount of courage in facing your problems rather than trying to block them out. facing your problems offers hope that you can work on them and solve them. drinking just keeps you locked in pain.

i wish you a lifetime of sobriety!

my best wishes to you,
jeannie

[blossom4th]

Krissi,
I am so proud of you! :) Jeannie is right when she said that drinking just keeps the pain locked in! :( So many people don't realize that substance abuse is only adding to their problems.

[The Dude]

Congrats on 5 years!!!!!!

[Kashis]

Thanks guys and gals you don't know how special and greatful I am for your comments things like this keep helping me grow stronger everyday and I am grateful for each and everyone of you
You will never know just how much Thanks again for the encouragement and the pats on the back

I knew posting this here was questionable but the alcohol and abuse went together an this is why I decided to do it

[cheyriver]

Hi Kashis,

I want to congratulate you on overcoming the drinking. I know what it is like. I started to drink to numb the pain. I'm not sure what hit me but one day I stopped. Facing the pain is scary and that is what I am trying to do now. It's hard but we have to take it one day at a time.

I'm glad I found this forum. It helps to talk to other survivors because we understand each other.

I will try to help as much as I can.

[Kashis]

Thanks I feel greatful that people care why I drank and understand how we hide pain when we are abused but fact of the matter is when you wake the next day its still there its just something we can't drink away