the depression just washes over me.....i HATE it.

[ThePaintedMan]

sometimes i want to jump out of my body.
the depression just washes over me all of a sudden.

sitting here with my dog, just messing around on the net and all of a sudden, WHAM. i feel the lowest of the low.

[ThePaintedMan]

i really can't take it...
i hate this so much.
i just took six, 5mg valiums....

how come nothing ever seems to work

[houghchrst]

Geez I am so sorry, I know exactly how you feel. Has happened to me already today and I can't seem to bring myself out of it. I have Xanax and Klonopin but I know that won't help, just make me tired so I plow through. Moment by moment. Aaahhh what exactly do you hope will happen with that much Valium? Find something to distract yourself, get up and move around, listen to the stereo full blast while you do something. Don't know how you feel about house work but loud rock and a mop sometimes help me. Hate housework, love music. Go for a walk with your dog. Is it too cold where you are? Call a friend and meet for coffee, tea, hot chocolate, nachos. Rent a funny movie. No hobbies, make one.

Gads I am one to talk. I am about to do the job I hate the most with the stereo full blast. Clean the bathroom and I am depressed enough.

Depression is a bicth I know. One step at a time. That is how you do it. Moment to moment. When you start dwelling you tell your brain it is being ridiculous and untrue. All a chemical reaction. You are not your depression.

I am sure this was no help whatsoever, I just wanted you to know you are not alone.

[Violet]

I have that, too. Sat at my desk and cried the other day. It sucks.