Kashis
12-13-2007, 09:45 AM
There is no easy answer really but its a easy answer were programed to feel like were nothing its all back to the mental abuse topic its things we hear things we see we put so much on us it takes a big toll on us
Its all the nasty things we seen and had done to us of course when were abused we think we failed we think we failed our kids ourselfs our familes the lies we told to hide abuse we always think we failed why shouldn't we thats what the abuse taught us NOT HAPPINING we didn't fail us nor our children or familys we fell into a black hole so to say and crawling out was the hard part goin on after this gets easier but we feel we fail ourselfs if we can't cope with the flash backs we feel we fail ourselfs for letting this happen but its over we have to try to move forward yesterday is gone tomorrow may never come today is a gift thats why its called the present we have to live in the present and thats hard after during or inbetween abuse but we have to stay in the day or we will go crazy we aren't crazy were just lost not failures just lost
When we meet people who find out we were abused there like how could you stay is ususlly the first question then thats awful is the next this is where we feel like failures too what people don't get is the programing its all about programming to make us think we are failures were not but its pounded in us litterally some want nothing to do with it an turn there backs again making us feel we failied as they want nothing to do with this so again it happens
We feel empty inside we cry cause we failed but we didn't when you do eventually get out and away we succeded we conquered we won
where your still stuck in a abusive situation or letting abuse of the past conquer you still we still feel faliures in our everyday life it all again comes down to the deprogramming someday I will figure that post out but until then I can only work with what I can on my posts
None of us our failures as GOD didn't make failures evil set in our lives GOD didn't fail us we just must find him for strength to go on to move on to become strong
This was another hard topic to post and I am doing my best and again just trying to help as best I can I never mean to hurt anyone just to help everyone I just want to see every one overcome things like I have I am not perfect but I am not a failure never was I managed to deprogram me and I want to help all of you
Its all the nasty things we seen and had done to us of course when were abused we think we failed we think we failed our kids ourselfs our familes the lies we told to hide abuse we always think we failed why shouldn't we thats what the abuse taught us NOT HAPPINING we didn't fail us nor our children or familys we fell into a black hole so to say and crawling out was the hard part goin on after this gets easier but we feel we fail ourselfs if we can't cope with the flash backs we feel we fail ourselfs for letting this happen but its over we have to try to move forward yesterday is gone tomorrow may never come today is a gift thats why its called the present we have to live in the present and thats hard after during or inbetween abuse but we have to stay in the day or we will go crazy we aren't crazy were just lost not failures just lost
When we meet people who find out we were abused there like how could you stay is ususlly the first question then thats awful is the next this is where we feel like failures too what people don't get is the programing its all about programming to make us think we are failures were not but its pounded in us litterally some want nothing to do with it an turn there backs again making us feel we failied as they want nothing to do with this so again it happens
We feel empty inside we cry cause we failed but we didn't when you do eventually get out and away we succeded we conquered we won
where your still stuck in a abusive situation or letting abuse of the past conquer you still we still feel faliures in our everyday life it all again comes down to the deprogramming someday I will figure that post out but until then I can only work with what I can on my posts
None of us our failures as GOD didn't make failures evil set in our lives GOD didn't fail us we just must find him for strength to go on to move on to become strong
This was another hard topic to post and I am doing my best and again just trying to help as best I can I never mean to hurt anyone just to help everyone I just want to see every one overcome things like I have I am not perfect but I am not a failure never was I managed to deprogram me and I want to help all of you