Lonely Tonight

[Fig]

Hello All..... I'm tucked into bed, watching TV. My parrots are in their cages, covered for the night (since 6pm) sleeping. I hear an occasional chirp or wing rustle. This is my favorite time of day.......
I just feel so melancholy tonight, and lonely. It's not a loneliness that people could cure--it's something deeper and more painful. Can anyone relate?
Well, it's time to take my Ambien and hope for a good sleep.
Hope you all have a good night.

Marion

[Cry Tears]

Hello All..... I'm tucked into bed, watching TV. My parrots are in their cages, covered for the night (since 6pm) sleeping. I hear an occasional chirp or wing rustle. This is my favorite time of day.......
I just feel so melancholy tonight, and lonely~~~not a loneliness that people could cure--it's something deeper and more painful. Can anyone relate? Marion

Dear Marion...do I ever relate...yes...a deep pain that may never be cured!
I know a little bout what you mean, lonely...I lost a lot when I had to quit work, many health issues, pain etc...lost my family too!...long story, but I've done nothing wrong...they're just terribly disfunctional...is sad.
A few of us gals do PM to eachother trying to support thru the pain and humdrum from being disabled and always staying home, no work saga to yak about...gosh wouldn't that be fun!
Anybody have any good office gossip?...the boss is going where with WHO?
Does his wife know?...wow!...fill me in! I wanna hear!
I do art work and sewing IF I have energy enough...sometimes I wonder if is really fatigue or is it my diseases causing this?...some days I'm unable to get out of bed...I hate that!..and my house is a mess! I despise filth and clutter!
Do your birds talk?....I had a cockateil...talked a blue streak!
Said lots of funny things. If you want me to brag about the stories, let me know, they're too funny!...specially the one about "Help help, call the cops!"
This bird was saying this at the heigth of a "holy moment" when husband being anointed with oil before his cancer surgery...our pastor and few others couldn't help but laugh...the entire room burst out with laughter...I mean how could we not?!...i'd just covered his cage as he was being noisy, so put the blanket over his cage...pretty soon heard him wisper.."help help...then got louder as moments went on...pretty soon was screaching "Help, Call the cops!
Oh Cholita...was so much fun!...I miss him!...was 20+ years ago.
I'm also striving for vegan diet...is hard because of Gluten problems.
I've been off/on vegan 55+ years now except when I ate meat! :D
I make awesome pecan loaf and oatmeal patties...oh yum!
Am trying to stay clear of tofu and soy products...
Husband is on a CHIP diet, very stringant...hard to follow, but is doing well on it. No more chest pain and won't need heart stints of bypass surgery!
Is healing with a fork and knife instead of drugs and surgery that often end up disastorous.
CHIP program is reported to help many with auto immune diseases...but I've not been following the program 100% as I still use fats, oils and sugars...is hard for me becaues I've had bowel resections and the wheat meats I once loved...is very problematic!...I make totally yummy wheat meat "steaks", if anyone wants my recipe...be happy to share.
Link to the CHIP info...is taught all around the US...is very inexpensive and they have sponcers for financial help for those who can't afford it.
http://www.chipusa.org/about_hans.html
Blessings, cheryl
PS...I don't often come visit the forums...but I check my PM box often, so just click on my name, send me a PM. My email is down for a bit, so email won't reach me right now.

[houghchrst]

Marion, I hope you had a restful night. Looks like you have some nasty weather coming your way unfortunately. We were supposed to get a bit of snow last night and this morning but I am not quite sure what happened. Well Michigan, what do I expect?!

I know what you mean by being lonely but since coming here to BT I find that quite a bit of it has abated. There are others here like us so it is very comforting. A shoulder to cry on, a hug given, a laugh, all help to make things tolerable and you can find them all here.

What kind of parrots do you have? I use to have a Blue Conure but he was a mean bugger and very stubborn. I think that the people who had him before me were not very caring towards him. I gave him to a girl I worked with in the pet store who had the time and the knowledge to take care of him.

I hope your day is filled with cheer and smiles.

[Tootsie]

I have to laugh remembering an experience visiting a good friend who had a parrot. She had come to the door but then excused herself for something needing her attention in another part of the house. Her parrot said, "You left your lights on." Being clueless, I dutifully went back to my car to check the lights, thinking someone else in the house said that. My friend just laughed and laughed. Cheerio.

[Fig]

Thanks for your replies. It helps knowing my feelings are understood and even shared. Yes, these birdies will share their thoughts at the oddest times! I was on the phone with a nurse one time being interviewed before an operation when Elmo, who was sitting on my shoulder, yells into the receiver "Take a bath!!" I was mortified. The nurse got very quiet, then says "excuse Me?" I explained it was my parrot and she cracked up, then we got into a discussion about birds and the the things they say.

I'm a vegetarian and find my diet makes me feel better spiritually. I'm working on going vegan--almost there.

I know I need to get out more, socialize more......... well, I'm trying.
Your support and friendship is very important to me. Marion

[Fig]

Oops! Yes, my parrots! I have 4 Lories---they are nectar eating parrots, beautifully colored, acrobatic, funny, loving and very smart. Mine are Elmo (Red Lory, male, 11yrs old) Caillou (Dusky Lory, female, 4yrs old) Pip (male, Rainbow Lorikeet, 8mos old) Hazel, male Duivenbode's Lory, 1 yr old)

Elmo asks for his bath, for his apple, plays peekaboo (he says peekaboo-peep!) plays fetch, sneezes, coughs (a real smoker''s cough), laughs, says "I love you" "Gimmie a kiss!" "Hiya Cutie" "What's the matter?"

[houghchrst]

Wow Marion that is great. Gee you always have someone to talk, I guess sometimes even when you are not in the mood LOL.

Being a vegan takes a lot of dedication so I have heard. I am a meat and potatoes girl. Though I do pay for it. I do not eat healthy enough and regret it. Another thing to beat myself for I guess. I am a recovering addict and food has put up a stronghold and unfortunately is winning. I have all the tools just need to use them. Enough.

How is the weather where you are. WE finally got snow and now rain early this morning (sometime while I was sleeping.) Hope that front didn't hit you too badly. The bad thing about predicting weather where I am at is that they often get it wrong. WE get our hopes up about a bit of snow or even thunderstorms, which I love, and we get nothing or a five minute sprinkle.

Well I hope today finds you well.

[Cry Tears]

Is supposed to clear up...but not without dumping a few snow flakes on us. Everyones looking foward to this...but we havnt seen the sun in ages...its always cloudy, gloomy here ALL the time, is very depressing.
Is the resaon the suicide rate is so high here....also has the highest incidence of MS...is worst here than around the world...scary thoughts for me...I moved here from So Calif where it never rained...had sun 365 days a year.
One year went an entire year without a single drop of rain.

Marion...are your birds those darlking Lorikeets? If so...I love em big time.
At our zoo they've got a cage full of them...you hold little cups of nectar, they sit on your hands drink the juice.
They're so brightly colored...I love their chatter. If we lived down there, I mean in So Calif...I'd have a bunch of birdies....my Grandfather had lots of parrots, also raised parakeets...he built huge cages to keep them in.
My freinds have parrots and a big green parrot name Corky.
Whenever he saw me, he'd fly over to me...was funny cuz his eye's would dialate and move wierd when he was trying to vie for my attention.
For some reason he really liked me....would sing, make weird uninteligable yakking sounds...perhaps telling me "sweet nothings". LoL!
We have a bunch of parrots wild here in our area...they're making terrible problems for people because they're building huge nest around the transformers...some big as VW cars...because the transformers are warm.
So they're having to kill the birds.
Everyones up in arms over this....
There's got to be a better way to deal with these birds.
I haven't kept up with this story...so don't know how they've dealt with the problem. I'm sad they felt they could only deal with them by killing.
Here's a link to that story.
http://www.kgw.com/news-local/stories/kgw_112607_news_yacolt_parakeets.41478bef.html

My cats are too naughty so I can't keep my birds here, so the birdies live with others...its been over 10 years since I gave them new homes.
I guess a big parrot would hold his own with a cat!...But I wouldn't chance it.
Well....I hope you're OK, not as lonely...I'm having a very hard time with thinking about the upcoming holidays...it only means sadness for me.
I wish I had a loving family...but I don't....only God can heal my family IF they'd allow Him to...but for now....I'll just have to suffer the consequences of the choices I made years ago.
I can't go back and undo what i did (adopt 2 girls from orphanage...they turned our once very functional home into a war zone with their acting out, drinking, running away...my son blames me for ruining his once perfect life,
He's promised to make me wish I'd never been born, wants to hurt me anyway he can...his recent antics is not allowing me to see my precious granddaughter....I miss her so much....my heart is breaking and I don't know what to do. He hates, despises me...told me he will NEVER forgive me as long as he lives...and that religeon is for weirdo's...so he's thrown that away as well...is very sad.)...the girls don't love or care about us either...but they're just acting out as they were thrown away at very young age.
I only wanted to love and be loved...thats all...but now I'm only hated.
I'm in such a feel sorry for self mood today.
Anyway...I don't even want to decorate and could care less about the holidays.
Anyone else feel this way? How do you handle this?
Do you decorate anyway? I don't want to...is sad.
All dressed up, no one to love!
sadly...cheryl

[Fig]

Hey Cheryl, I'm so sorry your family has turned the way it has. Pain and anger can do terrible things to people and some just choose to lash out. I used all of mine on myself.

I have a Red Lory, a Dusky Lory a Duivenbode's Lory and a Rainbow Lorikeet. They are all breathtakingly beautiful.

The holiday season makes me homesick and melancholy. It is bittersweet. I remember how when I was a kid my sister and I would walk in New York City, along Fifth Avenue looking at the store window displays and eat sacks of hot chestnuts. Those were good times. My teens and early 20's were good, too. But now........

I'm Jewish and celebrate Hannukah. I have sweet memories of my mother lighting the Menorah, her latkes (potato pancakes) and presents. I light my candles and get presents for the birds. So, there's something.

We have a storm on the way.........

Marion

[Tootsie]

Hi Marian,
I'm not sure where you are in NY, but I remember just how cold, dreary and damp, Western New York could be during the winter months. There aren't a lot of warm and sunny places nearby, so you have to create your own.

During the holiday season, have you considered volunteering to care for other people's birds while they are away for a few days? Do you belong to any organized groups that either observe, care or monitor, local bird life? With your knowledge, I would think that you have much to offer other bird lovers. Cheerio.