MamaRider
11-27-2007, 03:59 AM
...Not a poot poot pitiful mr. I am so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. And AGING on top of all this stuff is just frigging RUDE. It is RUDE I say! I am already startin of thinking of the New ears Resolutions I am going to make (and eventually Break-as per usual) The number one is going to be that I am going to put on REAl clothes each day. No more hanging around all day in what I slept )or didn't sleep in really)and then just going back to bed to toss and turn in themagain. Nope, I am gonna ry--that is TRY to put on something, ust clean undies,jeans and a te shirt each day. Hey, it is a start.
I am tired of my 25 ear old daughter treating me like caacaa poopoo. Ig hurts so much. She has gotten meaner and meaner. Paparider sees it and threatens to throw her out, but the truth is she too is hurt and has nwhere to go,I FAILED AS A MOTHER. That hurts so badly to say. I am such a failure. I amabad wife, abad homemaker, ahorrid mother, why did God make me. I don't even go to Church any more because Iam either not feeling well or too rigging depressed, or both. ANd I am dragging my wonderful hubby down with me on that one. I KNOW he LOVES to go to church, but he hates to go if I don't, I have been exactly ONCE this year. There is a few other issues there too. I don't think our Pastors Mother (he is sigle) likes me much, and I feel likee she is sorta a leader of the women in the church, and her bad feelings towards me rub off on the other women. Before you ask, yes I have mentioned this to the Pstor, one of the time I was in he hospital. I haven't followed thru yet and sat down with her...MY BAD there...I just don't like how she treats me, she is RUDE.
Lookat me, I am ALMOST crying over this petty crap. My oldest sister is DYING of cancer. We have a horrid relationship--about issues I CANNOT talk about--it could harm my daughe ...badly. I had to make a choice of her harming my daughter mentalyy, or never having a good relationship with her Well, I chose my daughter, and believe me what she know and what she feels she should tell my daughter is terribly hurtful to my daughter. I went to several shrinks over this and I was told I made the right chioce. Well, now the right choice cure hurt me. I don't want her to die . I ove her,But I could not let her be the boss of me and my household. Aso she NEVER got over the fact that I divorced my 1st hubb, and remarried (I will be married 29 years in next April,so I picked the right guy the 2nd time around)BUT she doesn't like him, because she cannot boss HIM around either. She HAATES that. Then there is Pam, the sister drunk) in the middle, who as not frgien my daughter for something she said when she was like 8-9. Something about, "if you cannot be nice to my mommy, I don't want to come to your house." Wel m ddaughter is 25 now and they talked a bit a year or so ago when my mom died. Pam has one ELEPHANT of a memory. Or she figures she cannot talk nice to me.
I am sick of all this $^&* I really am. Help me CYBER freinds with some words of wits and wisdome, and PLEASE PLEASE pray for Patty (my sister with cancer)
Yurs in Christ, Mamarider
I am just so weary
I am tired of my 25 ear old daughter treating me like caacaa poopoo. Ig hurts so much. She has gotten meaner and meaner. Paparider sees it and threatens to throw her out, but the truth is she too is hurt and has nwhere to go,I FAILED AS A MOTHER. That hurts so badly to say. I am such a failure. I amabad wife, abad homemaker, ahorrid mother, why did God make me. I don't even go to Church any more because Iam either not feeling well or too rigging depressed, or both. ANd I am dragging my wonderful hubby down with me on that one. I KNOW he LOVES to go to church, but he hates to go if I don't, I have been exactly ONCE this year. There is a few other issues there too. I don't think our Pastors Mother (he is sigle) likes me much, and I feel likee she is sorta a leader of the women in the church, and her bad feelings towards me rub off on the other women. Before you ask, yes I have mentioned this to the Pstor, one of the time I was in he hospital. I haven't followed thru yet and sat down with her...MY BAD there...I just don't like how she treats me, she is RUDE.
Lookat me, I am ALMOST crying over this petty crap. My oldest sister is DYING of cancer. We have a horrid relationship--about issues I CANNOT talk about--it could harm my daughe ...badly. I had to make a choice of her harming my daughter mentalyy, or never having a good relationship with her Well, I chose my daughter, and believe me what she know and what she feels she should tell my daughter is terribly hurtful to my daughter. I went to several shrinks over this and I was told I made the right chioce. Well, now the right choice cure hurt me. I don't want her to die . I ove her,But I could not let her be the boss of me and my household. Aso she NEVER got over the fact that I divorced my 1st hubb, and remarried (I will be married 29 years in next April,so I picked the right guy the 2nd time around)BUT she doesn't like him, because she cannot boss HIM around either. She HAATES that. Then there is Pam, the sister drunk) in the middle, who as not frgien my daughter for something she said when she was like 8-9. Something about, "if you cannot be nice to my mommy, I don't want to come to your house." Wel m ddaughter is 25 now and they talked a bit a year or so ago when my mom died. Pam has one ELEPHANT of a memory. Or she figures she cannot talk nice to me.
I am sick of all this $^&* I really am. Help me CYBER freinds with some words of wits and wisdome, and PLEASE PLEASE pray for Patty (my sister with cancer)
Yurs in Christ, Mamarider
I am just so weary