4 months today

[mama sue]

My love, I can't believe you are gone forever. I knew that when I left our lives would be changed. How I NEVER dreamed it would be forever!!! Why is a question I have to ask over and over, but what I really need you to know is that I will always love you. I didn't always love the things you did or the path you ended up on, but I know that wasn't you. I knew to the very depths of my soul the man you were Bob. A wonderful man, the best Daddy EVER!!! If I could have taken away your pain, I would have. My prayer today and always is that Jesus is holding you so tightly that you will never doubt again His love for you. Until we meet agin my beloved husband and friend. I miss you.

[Dented Angel/Lisa]

((((((((((Mama Sue))))))))))

Lisa

[JAVISI]

Mama,
I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I know this is still hard on you and oh how I wish I could help you! The only thing I can do is be here for you when you need me. That was a wonderful tribute to Bob!

I see you are still wondering why?? Me too! The pain it hasbrought about to so many people it is hard to beleive that they thought that they were so alone! I will probably always wonder why! I always see Kevins face with that sweet grin and those big dimples and yet he had so much pain inside. He hid his sadness well! Too well!

I am lucky in the respect that I talk to my best friend fairly frequently, he was both of our father figure! One of the guys that was in his pit crew (stock car racing). At the funeral and afterwards we talked, I hadn't seen him in quite a few years. He wanted my number but I got busy talking to others and did not give it to him, why I will never know. He did get my best friends phone number. They talked frequently. He made the commenet that he was in love 4 times, he included me in those 4! I was shoicked we were just teens, when we hung out!

He took his life just a couple of months after Kevin did and in the same manner! I feel sad, mad but no peace just yet. Somedays I think I will find it soon! I hope that we can! To help eachother. I know that my feelings are different than yours due to Bob being your husband and what you have been through~!

I love you and miss you! I will always keep you in my prayers!
(((((HUGS))))), Dream Big and Reach for the Stars, Javi;)