forget it

[houghchrst]

hi all. i got halfway through a life story vent to try to get some relief from what is going on now and realized there is so much that has happened to me, it would be too long and good lord who gives a crap. Having a rough time right now. I am mentally ill, suffer chronic pain, arthritis, fibromyalgia, inflammation, depression, mood swings, anxiety. hurt constantly. Have a 62 year old mother who accidentally od'ed on pain meds yesterday morning and is in hospital. Fractured her back last month and things have been downhill since then. I am exhausted, hurting, afraid, stressed, depressed, dissatisfied with my life and am in desperate need of some peace. I would like to disappear for a month and let someone else step into my place and fix everything so that when I come back all I have to worry about is managing my pain. Still in the process of figuring out how to do that. I don't know what I had hoped to accomplish by this post. Maybe a sense of relief? Shoot, didn't get it. Well maybe a little.

i'm out.

Hope all have a wonderful day. :)

[tic chick]

((((christina))))*smallheart

i empathize with you.

i've had those kind of days. will probably have some more. everybody has their own set of problems that they have to live with.

do your recovery work..you know, ONE DAY at a time.

the serenity prayer always helps.

beyond that, hope for a better day soon.

hugs,
jeannie

[Tootsie]

Some days are just ones that you need to go through, left foot, right foot. It does help to think only of those things that you can change, or do something about, as worrying about all the others is just a waste of time.

I do hope that things are more manageable soon, Christina. Cheerio.

[Buttons2]

Ditto,my thoughts exactly. Set aside what you have no control over right now. Deal with it later (or wish it away).

Concentrate on what you MUST do right now. You can do this,think of your own strength!

Keep posting,we do care,HUGS Buttons

[JAVISI]

Christina,
I am so sorry that so many things are happening to you right now! I wish I had magic words to make things better for you but unfortunatly I can not tell you anything that everyone else has said! All of those things are great advise! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

Dreaming Big and Reaching for the Stars, Javi;)

[houghchrst]

Hi all, it is a new day. I plodded through yesterday trying to stay numb so that I could manage my stress and anxiety. I did very little and did my best just to do nothing :D. Today I am taking care of a lot of stuff that needed taking care of without trying to hard to think about it.

Thank you all for your kind words and yes Joy I did read your post, it made me cry, not bad tears but tears of gratitude for your kindness.

I will move past this point I know but I am just so tired. It seems as though I just get to the end of one thing and then I have something else. There is no chance to catch my breath in between. This is not an exaggeration. Literally is one after another and I am just overwhelmed. I will get through this day and just need to remember that I cannot do everything and don't need to and I can't force others to do what they are unwilling to do and yes Tic Chick, one day at a time and I have to remember that I have a higher power and that he is there to shoulder some of my burden and to make me better able to cope with my own.

thank you all and have a wonderful day.

[joy]

I am so glad to see you came back today. I hope you have the strength to just handle all this, just take your time and do the best that you can with it all. Really that is all anyone can do. I found that getting others to help was often the hardest job that there was. I hope it does not turn out that way for you. I let the lack of support from others defeat my usual can do spirit and I will always regret that. But I am working on letting that go and it is getting easier for me as time passes. Please just let us know how you are doing often as you can.

[Buttons2]

You keep hanging in there Christina. I know you have alot of strength. Sometimes it gets down to one hour at a time,but you will be OK. Think ahead to next week,many of these issues will be resolved by then right? Jump over the hurdles as they come,don't let them trip you up though!

HUGS Buttons

[tic chick]

how are you doing today, christina?

i hope things have settled a bit with your mother.

all my children are adults. i love thanksgiving because i can take my time to cook all day without worrying about anybody else.

i start preparing a couple days before. i buy loaves of dense bread that i cube and dry in the oven for stuffing. the day before turkey day, i make my 3 pies. i have made the same half cheesecake, half pumpkin pie for about 23 years. i have silently cut the calories in it over the years and no one has been the wiser :D. i am the only person who likes homemade cranberry sauce. everybody else likes the jellied kind from the can. i make a bag of fresh cranberries for myself. i use splenda in it, grated orange rind and enough fresh grated ginger root to give it a bit of a kick. it lasts a while.

i have always loved thanksgiving. it is not commercialized.

and hey!! the lions are winning some games this year...lol.

what more could you ask for?

hoping you have had a nice day today,
jeannie *smallrose

[bluesky63]

"I let the lack of support from others defeat my usual can do spirit"

Joy, this line really hit me. I know this is what does it to me, and I wonder if this is what gets many of us. I personally feel like I can bear so many things if it's not just me bearing them. And Christina, forgive me if I'm misreading your post because I am new here, but I thought this is what I was catching from you too -- that you would love to have someone else to support you in this challenging life. Then you could check out for a bit!

Thanksgiving is a day I don't mind taking over myself. :-) And I am another fan of fresh cranberry sauce -- we boil it from scratch too. I've never tried ginger; that's a great idea.