ninjikiran
09-05-2007, 08:54 PM
Today my worst fears came through, what I thought was a voice in her head was actually a multiple personality disorder. Her other personality had talked to her often making her sad, making her cry and hurting her no matter how much I have tried to help and I just thought it was a voice and perhaps she doesnt even know its a personality. What was the voice came to full light and took over her mind and body, she is a different person right now.. not the girl I love but a bad "personality" in her head that she cant fight against. I feel so helpless against it because there is nothing I can do, nothing at all and god I wish there was but I need help. I am scared she would end up being put in a mental institution which has happened once due to reasons that I am unsure of but obviously it did nothing to help her but make her worst. It kills me that theres this personality hurting her and making her sad.... her personality is jealous of me, shes jealous of her thinking about me all the time, I dont know how nor can I explain it but thats what her other personality told me. I want to help her when the girl I love comes back and takes over her body again, I know at this point theres nothing I can do but wait for her to come back but when she comes back I need to try my best so that she can stay in control. Right now she has no control and her other personality even told me that she has control over her and the way she makes her cry and the influence she has over her. It drives me nuts, and I am scared for my life(since her other personality hates and is jealous of me) since it is a very violent personality that has the ability to hurt and possibly more but I dont want to think about that, I am also scared about my gfs life since her other personality told me something that not even I knew about her trying to suicide in order to get away from the bad voice , the bad personality and I am almost crying right now knowing there isnt anything I can do. I know I gotta stay strong for her but I am freaking out. Can another help. give me the resource or give me a way to help her stay in control or to find a way to be in control. I dont want to leave her and drive her into a deeper sadness also, because I know its not her fault and I know she loves me and I love her.