GardeniaGirl
08-11-2007, 09:41 PM
Today (and yesterday) have just been such horrible days!!
I am getting so sick of this, and its unlikely to improve.
In the past two months, something in my body chemistry has changed.
I take my methotrexate dose on Wednesday night around 12:30am.
Every single Friday and Saturday for the past couple of months, I am getting these horrible all-day migraine things.
The perfect word to describe how I feel is dysphoric.
I feel a mixture of head pain, nausea, dizziness, anxiety, depression, body pain, fatigue, and being slightly wired. All mixed together and any drug I take for one symptom triggers of more of another one.
Its a totally miserable experience. I don't want to be alone but I don't want to be with anyone either.
I am not tired enough to sleep, but I have no motivation to do anything.
If I lay down too long, my pain increases, but if I move around too much, it increases too!
I've been "working" from home on Fridays for the past month because of this-- my workload is very light on Fridays and I can handle it if I am at home (usually just a few phone calls and emails)...but this weekly experience of these 2-3 horrible days is really bumming me out.
If I dope myself up on drugs, I will get tired and sleep for a couple of hours - but its like a total waste of a day. Its a Saturday and I feel like I am just sitting and watching the world go by - while i sit at home feeling like utter cr*p all day.
I do not understand the reaction my body is having to these stupid drugs.
Oh and to top it all off, tomorrow is my birthday by the way!
What a depressing way to ring in a new year.
thanks for reading!!!!:eek:
I am getting so sick of this, and its unlikely to improve.
In the past two months, something in my body chemistry has changed.
I take my methotrexate dose on Wednesday night around 12:30am.
Every single Friday and Saturday for the past couple of months, I am getting these horrible all-day migraine things.
The perfect word to describe how I feel is dysphoric.
I feel a mixture of head pain, nausea, dizziness, anxiety, depression, body pain, fatigue, and being slightly wired. All mixed together and any drug I take for one symptom triggers of more of another one.
Its a totally miserable experience. I don't want to be alone but I don't want to be with anyone either.
I am not tired enough to sleep, but I have no motivation to do anything.
If I lay down too long, my pain increases, but if I move around too much, it increases too!
I've been "working" from home on Fridays for the past month because of this-- my workload is very light on Fridays and I can handle it if I am at home (usually just a few phone calls and emails)...but this weekly experience of these 2-3 horrible days is really bumming me out.
If I dope myself up on drugs, I will get tired and sleep for a couple of hours - but its like a total waste of a day. Its a Saturday and I feel like I am just sitting and watching the world go by - while i sit at home feeling like utter cr*p all day.
I do not understand the reaction my body is having to these stupid drugs.
Oh and to top it all off, tomorrow is my birthday by the way!
What a depressing way to ring in a new year.
thanks for reading!!!!:eek: