3boysmom
05-14-2007, 09:48 AM
I am new to this area, but have posted on the Colloid cyst forum previously.
(And, the colloid cyst may actually have a part in my anxiety.)
I went to the dr. for a checkup the other day and just let it all out. She immediately pulled me from work with an medical illness release-(started Thurs. 5/10- Fri 5/18). Well, of course I went right into work that day and spent the whole day there. On friday I didn't go in, but still took calls and went in to get my laptop, and then last night I made an appointment to see someone later this afternoon. I am a mortgage loan officer and my job is commission and very stressful. I can not afford to just stop working..however I do realize that it is part of my problem. It is becoming harder and harder for me to perform the work tasks I have done over the past 6 years. I am second guessing everything I am doing and find myself mentally and physically exhausted at the end of the day. So much that I am snapping at customers, co-workers and my family. I have to rush out of work to get the kids--sometimes 3 different locations--worry about what is for dinner--laundry done? dishes done? homework? kids need to go to bed..but they won't...it is all becoming too much for me to handle, so I tend to shut down. (For example, yesterday was Mothers Day and my H asked me where I wanted to go out to dinner. I couldn't even choose a place, it made my head spin, etc... So he chooses. We get there and I couldn't even decide what I wanted to drink, eat, etc...Which probably doesn't matter much because I have been getting physically sick every day due to the stress and anxiety of it all...)
I explained to my Dr. that I feel as though I have been treading water and I can't do it any more. It is not as though I want to do anything drastic like end my life... (I would never do that to my family!) I just want "off my ride" for awhile. That is why she said she would remove work for a week to see if I can get a grasp on the other things in my life. But a week isn't going to be enough. And I had to use 5 vacation days and the other 2 days would be covered by disability. (Even though I have continued to work this is how HR sees it has to be done) SO, my question is has anyone gone on disability due to anxiety? I really think I need to remove work from my plate to be able to function, but we can't afford that now--not to mention I carry all the health insurance/benefits for the family as my husband is self-employed.
I was on Lexapro for the past few years as I have exhibited minor anxiety symptoms in the past. The Dr. just switched me to zolof and xanax. Xanax she said to only use when I feel that anxiety coming on... I haven't used yet because I guess I am afraid to.
So please Help me ...if anyone has advice to give...or how to somehow get on disability for awhile. I know it is offered for depression and bi-polar, but not anxiety. I just don't know what to do.
Thank you for at least letting me vent.
Take Care~
(And, the colloid cyst may actually have a part in my anxiety.)
I went to the dr. for a checkup the other day and just let it all out. She immediately pulled me from work with an medical illness release-(started Thurs. 5/10- Fri 5/18). Well, of course I went right into work that day and spent the whole day there. On friday I didn't go in, but still took calls and went in to get my laptop, and then last night I made an appointment to see someone later this afternoon. I am a mortgage loan officer and my job is commission and very stressful. I can not afford to just stop working..however I do realize that it is part of my problem. It is becoming harder and harder for me to perform the work tasks I have done over the past 6 years. I am second guessing everything I am doing and find myself mentally and physically exhausted at the end of the day. So much that I am snapping at customers, co-workers and my family. I have to rush out of work to get the kids--sometimes 3 different locations--worry about what is for dinner--laundry done? dishes done? homework? kids need to go to bed..but they won't...it is all becoming too much for me to handle, so I tend to shut down. (For example, yesterday was Mothers Day and my H asked me where I wanted to go out to dinner. I couldn't even choose a place, it made my head spin, etc... So he chooses. We get there and I couldn't even decide what I wanted to drink, eat, etc...Which probably doesn't matter much because I have been getting physically sick every day due to the stress and anxiety of it all...)
I explained to my Dr. that I feel as though I have been treading water and I can't do it any more. It is not as though I want to do anything drastic like end my life... (I would never do that to my family!) I just want "off my ride" for awhile. That is why she said she would remove work for a week to see if I can get a grasp on the other things in my life. But a week isn't going to be enough. And I had to use 5 vacation days and the other 2 days would be covered by disability. (Even though I have continued to work this is how HR sees it has to be done) SO, my question is has anyone gone on disability due to anxiety? I really think I need to remove work from my plate to be able to function, but we can't afford that now--not to mention I carry all the health insurance/benefits for the family as my husband is self-employed.
I was on Lexapro for the past few years as I have exhibited minor anxiety symptoms in the past. The Dr. just switched me to zolof and xanax. Xanax she said to only use when I feel that anxiety coming on... I haven't used yet because I guess I am afraid to.
So please Help me ...if anyone has advice to give...or how to somehow get on disability for awhile. I know it is offered for depression and bi-polar, but not anxiety. I just don't know what to do.
Thank you for at least letting me vent.
Take Care~