very eventful update

[eazilyconfused345]

hi there! i am new to this forum, but not to posting. i just wanted to give an update on how im doing, since i dont pop in as often.
alot of things have happened lately.so i dont know where to start, so i will just jump in. lately, my depression has been getting most of me, but a few months ago, i hit rock bottom. i began to have suicidal thoughts. i dont want to alarm any of you, i AM getting the propper help and have gotten medical care, so this is not a cry for help in that way. after that, things have been happening so fast. next thing i knew my meds were increased, and there was talk of being sent to a mental health center.the health center thing has not happened, thankfully. i am extremely slowly getting better.
in the midst of all this, my pappa (grandpa) suffered congestive heart failure. he is ok now, but can no longer walk and needs oxygen 24/7. he is a trooper, having suffered emphazema and prostate cancer (which is in remission :) ) he is 80 years old.
i found out about 2 nights ago, that my friend emma was hit by a car while crossing a cross walk at night. the drivers didnt see her. she was life flighted from the scene. i was already so angry at that point, and if she wasnt ok, i vowerd i would stop listening to a band we both liked. i was going to take all of my posters down too (all 7 of them!). luckily, she is ok and only suffers a broken arm and a black eye.
tonight, my mom went iinto the hospital. she has diabetes and her blood sugar was way high. she is staying there over night, and i will find out in the morning.i would like to ask all who read this to keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers. thank you for listening.
sincerely,
eazilyconfused345

[Chat Moderator #1]

Hi EZ. You know your friends in the chat room are always there for you.

I hope you are feeling better by now. Also hope your mom is home from the hospital soon.
And I hope your pappa and your friend emma are doing well also.

Will see you soon in the chatroom and you will have good news to tell us.

Sincerely,
CM #1
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[atypicaljane]

Ez
I'm not sure if I told you before how insightful I think you are for your age, you are beyond your years and I want you to remember to slow down sometimes...to remember to enjoy life.
you sure have had a lot on your plate lately, and when the ones we love get ill or hurt its very hard to understand sometimes. you have incredible strength, but know, like mod1 says we are always here for you too, so you don't have to be strong all the time. I too am looking forward to hearing about how everyone dear to you in your life is doing, I know they are lucky to have you looking out for them!, as always you are in my thoughts.

Jane :-)

[JAVISI]

[FONT="Georgia"][SIZE="4"][COLOR="DeepSkyBlue"]I think most of us have been where you are! Getting understanding from people that really do understand and care helps so much.
I have had so many things happen to me in the past year. My health has really declined. I have been hospitalized 3 times, 2 times with pneumonia in both of my lungs, I now have a feeding tube. When the feeding tube was placed my bowel was knicked and I went into septic shock and almost died!

It was at my lowest point that I wanted to live! I could have gave up and died but their are so many things I want to do in my life yet! Things have not settled down much since then, My son is in jail and has been since January. My boyfriends dad is in the hospital with a blood clot in his lung and now my grandma has a ruptured breast implant that was placed over 30 years ago. It is all sitting over her 0pacemaker/defibrilator. Her chances of making it through this is very grim, she has a very badly damaged heart!

I keep holding on, I try to find some type of positive each day! I still fight with depression. The meds help but they do not take away the problems:( .
It seems like when it rains it pours but I know I could never make it without the hope and strength from my friends here on BT!:)

It is a place that people really can understand where you are coming from and can relate to your problems. It helps to vent but it also helps to know that others understand and truely do care!
Best wishes;)