Carlie Jae 1997-2005

[momof4everangelcarliejae]

I wake up this morning and it is the anniversary of my daughter's death. Time is passing and more and more people are forgetting. I was upset about this last year. but perhaps even more as less people have communication with me. It gets harder and harder every year to reach out and call people that have become strangers, the connections are severed as the link was my carlie. I miss my daughter and the joy she brought me just by being in this life with me. My role as a parent made me who i am today and every living soul i see these days i have the urge to want to nuture and give love to. I am trying to find new hope through having another child but is was a challenge to even come to this decision with my husband. i now wait for his surgery date and then we can begin trying. i remmeber holding my daughter and thanking a god everyday for her oh so precious presence in my life, stroking her soft face to soothe her to sleep and the careful tucking her in bed in hopes that she stay asleep.

Robyn

[facepain]

Happy Birthday CarlieJae! I am sorry to hear that you lost your daughter. i cannot imagine what that must be like. i do know what it is like to feel like nobody remembers, or connections being severed. just keep reaching out -- i hope you and your dh find all you need to get through -- and to keep CarlieJae's memory alive. I LOVE her name -- I am truly sorry. you sound like a wonderful person.

[moose53]

((((((Robyn)))))),

There's an awful lot of us who still remember Carlie Jae. Days and dates and anniversaries and birthdays might slip by in the confusion of our lives. But, the actual *SENSE* of what it meant to all of us to have Carlie Jae in our lives -- that will NEVER-EVER go away.

I know what you mean about people forgetting. You still have the deep soul pain inside you. And people have stopped remembering. And people have stopped talking about Carlie Jae (or, they don't feel comfortable talking about her any longer). The things that you did for her that became part of your daily routine just disappeared -- cold turkey, no easing off, no adjustment time -- just gone.

I felt all of these things when my Brother killed himself. Just like in your life with Carlie Jae, there was never -- AND THERE WILL NEVER BE -- any sense, any "reason why".

Robyn, that's the hardest kind of hell to adjust to living in.

I pray that you're given another child in answer to your Mother's heart screaming out for meaning. If this does not turn out to be reality, I know -- I know in my heart, Robyn -- that there is a way for you to give to and to nurture other children in the world who specifically need what you're good at doing. Your heart isn't ready for that yet.

Trust me, Robyn, the easing of the pain does come. The sense of acceptance does come. The peace in your soul and in your heart does come. The time is different for all of us.

There are still a lot of us who feel the Carlie Jae-sized hole in The Universe along with you. We always will.

Hugs (and love).

Barb

[Cry Tears]

Dear Robyn...Your daughter has the most loving mother any child could want.
I'm so, so sorry you've lost her for a time.
I can't even begin to fathom the aching pain your heart must endure.
I have a grand daughter, Madison who'll be 9 this Tuesday....so she is about how old your Carlie Jae was.
When I hear of others losing loved ones, it brings terrifying fear to my heart as I wonder if I will ever lose my precious Madison some day.
I can't even handle the thought of that sort of loss.

I do pray the Lord will bless you with another child.
It won't replace your Calie Jae...but will fill the void you have in your heart and fill your empty arms.
I've never had a loss as you've had so I can't begin to understand this sort of heartache.
All I can is say is how much I feel for you and hope your pain will ease with time.
I don't think people have forgotten about your dear one...its probably just too hard for them to bring this up to you as they know how hurt you still are and they don't want to reinjure you all over again.
Its hard to approach one whose had such losses, I know as I've been in same situation.
I want to ask about them, but my fears of opening a flood gate keeps me from saying what I'd really like to say.
I want to let them know I'm thinking of the one they've lost...but fear of causing more heartache stops me for saying anything.
I'm sorry its just human nature to think this way
Hugs to you....may the Lord bless you soon!
Blessings, Cheryl

[hereandnow]

I also remember. I rarely post her now (used to be impossibletobeagoodmother) but for I was thinking about you and Carlie Jae and I remembered she had died in March. I don't know why her story touched me so much but i remember her beautiful smile and red hair.
I really pray that you are blessed with another little baby. It would help fill the void that Carlie Jae's death has left and I am sure your little angel would be smiling down on you.
xo

[The Dude]

I am so sorry you lost your Daughter.....

8 yrs old.... Very sad :(

God bless..Peace and love to you!!

The Dude :)

[mama sue]

(((Robyn)))
Oh sweetie, I DO know how you feel, which is why you don't see me post much. It's as if my entire existence was because of my sweet angels and as the years go by, people just don't continue that relationship. I miss my support people. It's as if everyone else has moved on, but your pain is still so raw. I understand dear one and if you ever want to talk, I'm here. Our children are probably playing together in Heaven :) That's a nice thought for me to imagine. As you may or may not know, my babes were both eight when they went to be with Jesus. As time goes by dearest, don't EVER think people have forgotten, I know I haven't. Most just don't know what to say. Much love to you dear and remember, I'm only a "CLICK" away. {{{HUGS}}}

[clouds z]

im sorry for your loss of her

friends can be crass in forgetting others

[drippi]

i dont know why i checked this forum, i actually post in a different topic area but i ended up on this thread and it made me cry.

i have no idea who you are, or what happened, but i just want you to know that i now know about a little girl named Carlie Jae and i wont forget her.